to my hs schoolmate, friend, kapakapatid, Geo

Labels: #drama, #life, %taglish, `friends, `life, sad

'Yung nagcoconflict 'yung gusto kong ma-achieve sa gusto kong gawin. Gusto kong pumasa, ayokong mag-aral. LOL

INTO IT: ONE MORE CHANCE
Tatlong beses ko ng napanood ang One More Chance pero ngayon ko lang siya naintindihan. Kasi, dati ang iniisip ko: Putang ina. Bakit naman sila nag-break kung mahal nila ang isa't-isa. Ano bang problema ni Basha? Buti nga concerned na concerned sa kaniya si Popoy. Grabe lang, 'di nalang niya pinagbigyan si Basha para 'di nalang sila naghiwalay? Putang ina naman. Bakit siya nakipag-relasyon kung mahal niya talaga si Basha? Tapos, itong si Basha, makikipag-break tapos iiyak-iyak noong nakapag-move on na si Popoy. Putang ina, ang tanga ng movie na 'to.

Pero, hindi pala.

Iniwan ni Basha si Popoy kasi hindi niya alam kung 'yung ginagawa niya ay dahil gusto n'ya, or dahil alam niya na gusto ni Popoy, or dahil 'yun nga mismo ang sabi ni Popoy. Gusto niyang malaman kung ano ba talaga ang gusto niya sa buhay. Choice niyang malaman kung 'yun ba 'yung gusto niyang future, 'yung kasama si Popoy, or nasanay lang siya dahil sa katagal-tagal na five years din silang magkasama. She was brave enough na ipusta 'yung five years na 'yun para lang malaman 'yung gusto niya.

Si Popoy, hindi agad-agad nakapag-move on, kasi hindi niya naintindihan 'yung reason ni Basha. Ang alam niya lang, sawa na siya, nasasakal na sya. Ang boring niya naman kasi talagang boyfriend, controlling pa. Akala niya kasi 'yung ginagawa niya ay para rin sa ikabubuti nilang dalawa, 'yung lahat planado, practical, at logical.

Nag-snap nalang si Popoy noong dinala ni Basha si Mark. Naisip niyang 'yun na 'yung time mag-move on. Wala namang nangyayari talaga sa pagiging malungkot niya lang. 'Yun bang, kung siya magmo-move on, eh di, ikaw rin. Sa totoo lang, mas maraming taong ganon, makikipag-unahang makahanap ng bago. Competitive kasi talaga by nature ang tao.

Naniniwala ako na minahal niya si Trysha (oh, di ko alam spelling. hahaha). Kasi si Popoy, naisip niya na 'yung type ng person na kailangan niya is 'yung type of person na ginusto niya maging si Basya. Example, 'yung wanting to be spoiled ni Trysha na ayaw naman ni Basya. Tapos, syempre, nag-change in to the person Basha wanted him to be rin sya at the same time. Ganun 'ata talaga after a break up. If you truly loved your ex, maiisip mo 'yung mga dahilan bat kayo naghiwalay, at ia-avoid mo na 'yun. Ia-avoid mo 'yun para di ka na masaktan, at di ka na makasakit.

Ang masama lang, nag-assume si Basha. Dahil alam niyang mahal na mahal siya ni Popoy, akala niya, 'di ito magmo-move on. Eh di, naguho mundo niya nung nalaman niyang may bagong girlfriend na si ex boyfriend. Tsaka niya na-realize kung ano talaga 'yung gusto niya sa buhay. Gusto niya lahat ng meron siya at that moment, plus si Popoy.

Sabi nga ni Crissy (idk the spelling, lol), nangyari 'yun kasi si Basha lang 'yung nag-acknowledge ng problema nila. At nasaktan silang pareho. Pero ang naisip lang kasi ni Popoy, 'yung sarili niya, na nasasaktan siya. Hindi niya naisip agad na, baka nasasaktan din si Basha.

At ayun. Nag-sex sila, tapos okay na. De, joke lang. Nag-heart-to-heart talk naman sila after.

Ang galing.

Note lang, bakit si Basya naka-high-heeled shoes, nasa site. Tangina. Baka mahulog siya!!! Okay na rin na hindi ako naging Engineer. Baka matulad ako sakanya, less poise nga lang,

Labels: #drama, #manic, %taglish, `films, `problem, into it

[A/N] I will try my best to make this as honest and revealing as I can get.

Before I went to bed, the last thing I remember is thinking of Nikka Apostol. I was texting her on my mind about the type of girls we were: cutie, animated, colorful, petite... Then all of a sudden I was in a room.

It was a block room, one side didn't have a wall and opened to what looked like a typical western neighborhood. Let's call this side "the hole". Opposite to that side, there was a single door. I was seated facing the door. Out came Jemar and Ashley, saying their hi's before leaving through the hole. Followed by Fed, amazingly holding a ball. Then came my first group of friends: Mea, Nae, and Paula. Nae sat across me, and on her right was Paula. Mea sat on my left. There was a table, btw.

"Ano 'yung issue na sabi nila, lagi nalang daw kayong sunod samin ni Mea?" Nae asked. I honestly don't know what she's talking about.

"Never heard of that issue."

"'Yung ano, sabi nga nila lagi lang daw kayong sunod samin?"

"Hind ko nga alam kung ano 'yan." I said, a little annoyed. I look at Paula who was playing with Nae's hair.

"Kunwari ka lang na hindi mo alam, pero alam kong alam mo." To me, I thought she was implying something, but her voice and facial expression are all too innocent.

"Hindi 'yan ang naririnig kong issue. Katext ko lang si Nikka kanina, wala naman kaming napag-usapang ganyan."

Nae made a "okay, whatever" face.

"Eh, ikaw. Bat ba ang init ng ulo mo sakin? Nakikipagbati ako sayo, ayaw mo. Hindi kita papansin, ayaw mo. Magrereact ako, ayaw mo. Ano ba talagang gusto mo?"

Paula let go of Nae's hair and sat straight, looking quite distressed. Nae, just looked, disappointed. I look at Mea and she was, idk why, blank. Non-moving, looking far beyond her knees. Not smiling, not frowning. Just blank.

"Bakit ba hindi tayo makapagbati-bati? We were friends before, it shouldn't be a problem."

"Sabi ko kasi sayo, eh-" I don't know who Paula directed this statement to.

And then Nix came saying she received my text.

What.

Labels: #cw, #update, %taglish, sad, text

[A/N] This is published late. The date lies.

Labels: #rant, %taglish, `problem, `school, murderous, text

PEOPLE WHO CAN'T WRITE, STOP MAKING BLOGS. YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO THE INTRICATE LAWS OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE.



Oo na, mayabang na ko. Oo na, feeling ko magaling ako, blah blah. Masama ugali ko. Boohoo.

[EDIT]
Okay, fine. People have their right to express themselves in ways they fancy. But, if running naked is prohibited by the law, writing blog posts should also be monitored closely. The cyber world is getting infiltrated by hipster. First with Facebook, and now advancing with Tumblr and Twitter. Before, there were only instagram crazies... but, now... They have discovered writing! O_o

Have mercy on us all...

Labels: #manic, #rant, %taglish, `internet, text

1. There is not enough love. Meaning, hindi niyo naman talaga mahal isa't-isa. Siguro lonely lang kayo, or trip, or tanga-tanga lang.

2. There's no trust / loyalty. Either, naglolokohan lang talaga kayo, or talagang walang tiwala.

3. There's no time for a relationship. Busy-busy'han. Iba ang priorities mo, which can be smart.

4. There's someone better.

5. "I am not happy." Hindi ka kontento. Hindi ka masaya.

6. (time in relationship) IS NOT PROPORTIONAL TO (strength of relationship) Hindi gumaganda ang relationship n'yo over time.


Hindi porket nagka-boyfriend(girlfriend) ka na ng lima and you're still 19, ibig sabihin bitch ka na, slut ka na.

Mag-boboyfriend ka kasi masaya ka with that person. 'Yung maiintindihan ka niya. 'Yung kaya ka niyang alagaan. 'Yung lahat ng kailangan mo, gagawin niya 'yung best nya para ibigay sayo.

Makikipaghiwalay ka kasi hindi ka masaya. Kasi andami mo ng reklamo sa buhay mo. Kasi hindi niya kayang intindihin yung mga kailangan mo. Kasi masyadong naaabuso yung pagmamahal mo para sakanya. Kasi wala kang space para maging boss. Kasi hindi mo kayang magdesisyong mag-isa, or, hindi ka pwedeng magdesisyong mag-isa. Kasi wala kang side of the story, sya lang at sya lang ang bida. MAKIKIPAGHIWALAY KA, KASI THERE IS SOMEONE BETTER THAN HIM/HER. Someone who will love you no matter what. Kasi meron pa 'yung ibabato sayo ng universe at sasabihing, "ayan, sayo yan, wala ng pipigil sainyo!"

Sana maging open minded ang lahat. At sana, wag na tayo mag-deny. Kung hindi ka masaya, hindi ka masaya. Wag na yung aarte pa na: Hindi ako masaya, pero mahal ko kasi siya. CHAKA! Kung mahal ka niya, masaya ka dapat!

BADVIBES.

Labels: %taglish, `love life, `problem, murderous, text

Labels: #random, %taglish, `love life, happy, text

A lot of people don't like Justin Bieber. They call him "gay", and that his songs are "lame" or "stupid" and such. And then there was Rebecca Black, "who doesn't have an ounce of talent", and having her own music video was "the worst thing that ever happened to the music industry". Now, there's this Hot Problems by Double Take. It's Justin Bieber and Rebecca Black allover again, times ten.

I'm not a fan of JB, nor Rebecca, nor this Double Take thing.

Labels: #manic, #random, #update, %taglish, `music

I'm with Lei, and someone else I don't remember, and the three of us is going to this pool party in some high-end resort. Sabi kasi sakin ni Lei, tutugtog ang FT Island. So, sumama ako.

When the gates opened, the scene was just magical. People having fun in a non-high way. Music blasted like a background music to a movie, I just can't figure out where it came from. There was a big pool at the far end, huts occupied half the space, and in the middle of the area was a make-shift bar. And then, there he was, the man I've so long wanted to meet, Choi Minhwan of FT Island. 'Di ko madescribe 'yung kilig na naramdaman ko. Agad-agad, I kinalabit ko na 'yung mga kasama ko and motioned them to follow me.

"Can we take a picture together?"

He looked at me and my heart melted like ice cream on a summer day. "Sure," he smiled at me. He put his drink down and stood up. Okay, he's tall. I'm, like, below his shoulder, so, he awkwardly sat down again. He put his hand on my arm and pulled me towards him. I felt like dying out of fangasm. His face beside mine. I felt his nose brush on my cheek as he looked at me. His breath on my cheek melted my already-slushie heart.

When the picture-taking was done, I looked at him. He was holding a phone on his left hand. "Can I get your number?" Praise the god of all gods! Just like that, he actually gave his number.

All the while, I kept on looking at him. He's just drinking, or rather, swirling the contents of his glass, looking relaxed. He seems to be just watching the party going on, like he's happy about everything around him. Suddenly, he saw me.

I broke eye-contact. I tried to look busy with my phone but I just remembered how easily I got his number. Wait. That's it. I got his number. I'll just text him. Ask him how he's doing.

I don't know why, or how, or if i'm dreaming, but it just happened. He's English isn't that good. I mean. Wow. Life is getting better and better every minute.

As the night grew older, more miracles seemed to happened. He was beside me, and he was just smiling. We didn't converse, to be honest. We shared a few broken words once in a while, but most of the time we just, looked at each other. i told him i was there because Lei told me they'd play. He said they weren't going to perform, and that the crowd doesn't seem to know him. He said he's happy someone recognized him. Until eyeing turned into holding hands, and touching faces... and... and then my phone rang. Marcgell asked me to meet him at the gates.

I went to the gates, and he was there. He kept on telling me things, and that he wanted to get inside. "No," I kept on telling him. "You can't come in here."

IDK how, but... things just happened.

And then I woke up. Thank God, Marcgell's still my boyfriend.

Labels: #cw, %taglish, `fandom, fireworks

I do my best to be a good friend and listen to people's concerns. I get so much drama from people's lives, aside from mine, sometimes I don't even want to listen anymore. Problema ko na 'to dati pa, kasi, hindi ako marunong humindi.

Labels: #list, %taglish, `life, `school, random

Every student has the freedom to run during the elections. But, since we're in UP, we are smart enough to ask ourselves if we're capable of having a position. We won't just suddenly think, AHA! I will run this elections as the chairperson, have nothing else to do, anyway.

Heart Diño, a pretty transgender, is the new University Student Council Chairperson. The Vice-Chairperson is another pretty face, Alex Castro, bisexual. Oh, and the prettiest face of Alyansa, Pat Bringas is now a councilor. Did I forget to mention Pat is short for Patrick?

People are making a fuzz about the USC being too full of LGBT. Why discriminate? We are all but human beings, with feelings.

Porket bakla na, di na kayang mag-serve? Kumpleto naman ang parte ng katawan nyan, sobra pa. Hindi dapat sa gender tinitignan ang galing ng isang tao.

Iba ang skills and talents ng isang tunay na lalake from a lesbian? Sa role ng pagiging ama, baka pwede mo pang i-claim 'yan. Pero, sa USC, I don't think so. PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT SKILLS AND TRAITS AND TALENTS. Hindi naman 'yan "set of talents" for men, women, gay, lesbians, transgenders. Iba naman talaga talents ko from another female. LABO LANG MEHN.

Chan said something that caught my attention kanina. "Sarili nya nga kaya nyang baguhin," meaning Pat Bringas. Tapos, naalala ko bigla. Oo nga naman. If you can start with yourself, then you can change a bigger picture. LIKE P.Noy Aquino, he can't change his smoking habbit, he can't change the Philippines for the better.


My point is, it's too early to judge. Each candidate was given the chance for equal time to campaign. Everyone in seat are the voters fault. If you didn't vote, 'wag magreklamo. If the one you vote for didn't one, eh, ano ngayon? Democratic tayo. UP has already chosen it's new set of leaders. Deal with it.

Para sa mga napakalakas ng loob mag-sabi ng "impeachment" at such an early stage, think about this: Life is a complete learning process. You are born with just three skills: eat, shit, breathe. You weren't asked to walk on the first hour, so don't set limits on other people as well. When we were born, our parents, the doctors, didn't tell you RIGHT AWAY what we'd have to be when we grow up. 

Do not judge something you don't know. Let's all give ourselves a chance: for the new Chair, a chance to serve the iskolars of Diliman; and for us, the chance to appreciate what the new Chair is willing to offer.


Nahilo ako sa sarili ko, English? Tagalog?
new tag: manic - for manic writing, rants

Labels: #life, %taglish, `school, manic

I finally figured out how to revert back to the old template. =___=;;

If you don't know, my ever pakealamerong boyfriend updated the template settings here in my blog. The configuration changed, and my theme went from perfect to garbage. I tried editing the template with the back-up I have (which, by the way, was way back from April of 2010). After it failed, I kinda accepted the fact that I will never again see this awesome blog of mine the way it used to be. I tried reasoning out with myself. Luma na rin naman, antagal na ng template na 'yun, panahon pa ni Marcos... I looked at themes, and ways to customize my current theme. But, as I go through pages and pages of pre-designed templates, I felt that I'm just looking for something that looked like my old one.

And, luckily, I was able to revert my blog back to the old template config.


Marcgell Adrian, I love you still, okay?

Labels: #update, %taglish

Kanina, nag-celebrate kami. Debut ni Marian. Ano, ang hyper ko lang. Gawa na rin siguro na tapos na 'yung Bio Lec and Lab exams. Eh, 'yun. Di, ang hyper ko. Tuwang-tuwa ako kay Mai. Ang ganda nya lang. Kahit na biglaan, at rush-rush lang mga nagawa namin for her, it seems na napasaya naman namin sya.

Naiinggit lang ako. Hindi dahil may surprise thing for her. Mas maayos pa nga 'yung akin nun, eh. Naiinggit ako, kasi, andun si Kuya whoever-that-is. Seems like, 'yun 'yung guy that likes Marian a lot. The whole time, andun s'ya, tahimik lang, pero, point is: andun s'ya. Tapos, syempre, naisayaw n'ya si Marian. Nung magkasama na actually sila, di na s'ya umalis sa tabi niya. Andun lang s'ya. Di sila nag-uusap, pero, point is: magkasama sila.

After nun, magkasama kaming lumabas ni Choi from NIGS. Well, well, well... Andun naman si Froi, sinusundo si Choi. (HAHAHA, funny lang, nagr-rhyme 'yung names nila.) Eh di, sawsaw na naman ako. Mga tatlo o apat na beses ng nangyari 'to. Sinusundo or hinahatid ni Froi si Choi, tas kasama rin ako. Kapag magkakasama kami, ako lang lagi 'yung maingay. Madaldal ako. Nagkukwento lang ako ng kung anu-ano. Di sila nakakapag-usap dahil sakin. Kasi, syempre, nagkukwento ako. Sumasagot naman sila, nakikitawa naman sila. Sabi nga ni Choi, "ako kasi ang boss." Pero, kahit ganun, magka-holding hands naman sila.


Sa tambayan naman, lagi kong nakikita sina Irah at ML. Ang sweet lang din nila... minsan. Minsan, nagkukulitan sila, nag-aaway. PERO, kahit na. Magkasama pa rin sila. Nakikita ko sina Gel at Albei, 'yung isa sakanila napapagod kakahintay / kakahanap sa isa. PERO, in the end, may dumarating, may nahahanap, nagkakasama sila.


Naiinggit ako. Naiinggit ako na may sumusundo sakanila, naghahatid.  Naiinggit ako na may kasama silang kumain. Naiinggit ako na may naghahawak ng kamay nila pag naglalakad. Naiinggit ako na may naghihintay sakanila after class. Naiinggit ako na every single day, may chance silang magkita at magkasama. Naiinggit ako na, kahit wala masyadong nangyayari sa buong araw, nagkasama naman sila. Naiinggit ako na, sila, may daily routines together. Naiinggit ako. Naiinggit talaga ako na magkakasama sila.

FUCK DISTANCE.

Pero, anong magagawa ko? Andito na 'ko, eh. LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP. Ilalaban ko 'to. Kahit walang sumusundo at naghahatid sakin, kahit walang nagdadala ng pagkain sa dorm, kahit walang nag-aantay sakin after class, kahit wala akong ka-holding hands sa SC, kahit wala akong mahawakan at ma-hug na boyfriend ko every school day... Alam ko naman sa sarili ko, pinili ko pa ring maging boyfriend si Marcgell kasi mahal ko talaga s'ya. Hindi dahil nasanay akong kasama sya. Hindi dahil kaya niya akong sunduin at ihatid. Hindi dahil malapit siya, hindi dahil convenient.
Boyfriend ko siya, kasi, mahal ko siya.

Mahirap, kasi sobrang namimiss ko siya. Tapos ang hirap pa, kasi, hindi naman pwedeng every weekend andito siya, or andun ako. May org siya, may soro ako, may exams pag weekend, may exams pag monday... Mahirap mag-hanap ng time para magkasama kami. Pero, naipipilit pa rin naman namin. It makes it more special, too. It's because we don't always see each other that we value our little time together. There's no time for anything else but love.

Labels: #update, %taglish, `me

Madalas akong tanungin ni Marcgell, "'di ka ba naniniwala?"

'Di raw ba ako naniniwala na mahal nya ako? Or, na ako lang? Or this, or that? Hindi ko diretsong masagot ang tanong na ito. Iba kasi kapag trust at faith 'yung issue.

Labels: #life, %taglish, `life, `me

Andami kong gustong i-blog.

This weekend, as in Saturday and Sunday, lang siguro ang matinong rest day, ulet, for a very long time.
BUT, I'm not complaining for the lack of time to do nothing. I love having something to do. Since, ayoko ng dull moments with just myself.

Anyway, like I said, andami kong gustong i-post. I want to talk about Mommy Cams, Ninang Kim, Rock Infinitum 3, Marcgell, Christmas, my Lola Lily, Marcgell, my batchmates, and some other stuff... like acads. 'Cause I have that, too. :|


Anyway, I really missed Mommy Cams. It's been two months, and, well... Ayokong masanay na wala sya. I'm so glad na nag-attend sya ng Rock Infinitum 3. Tho, hindi kami nakapag-kwentuhan, ang saya ko pa rin na nakita ko sya, busy, hyper. Buti na rin at dumating sya, since may nag-entertain ng alumni. (Totally forgot about that. :O Oops.)

Saludo ako kay Ninang Kim. Hindi ko sya piniling maging ninang, at wala lang talaga akong choice noon, na, parang binigay talaga sya ni God para maging ninang ko. x) Hala. OA na. Anyway, maganda grades n'ya, may social life siya, at ang sexy nya talaga. x___x Someday, I'll be like her. HAHAHAHA.

Hindi ko na naman pinag-iisipan mga sinasabi ko dito...

Jejemon.

Labels: #update, %taglish, `life, `school

Why do you always find your way into my blog?



Dahil ba, gustong-gusto kita noon, feeling mo, gustong-gusto pa rin kita ngayon? Dahil ba, lagi-lagi kitang pinapanuod noon (actually, pati ngayon), feeling mo, gustong-gusto pa rin kita?

Iniwan mo na nga ako para dun sa pangit mong girlfriend, diba? Oh, wait. Ex-girlfriend pala.

Tapos, ngayon, feeling mo, may babalikan ka pa?

Hindi na kita pupuntahan. Kahit sunduin mo pa ko, hindi na kita pupuntahan. Kahit naka-limousine ka pa, kahit naka-white horse ka pa, hinding-hindi ako sasama sayo. Kahit dalhin mo pa mga banda mo from wherever, kahit dalhin mo pa buong Pep Squad (pa-obvious naman), hinding-hindi mo na mababago isip ko. Kahit gawan mo pa ko ng kanta, kahit gawan pa nila ako ng 15-minute routine, hinding-hindi na talaga magbabago isip ko. Kahit. Hindi pa rin.

Wala na akong pake sa gwapo mong mukha, sa maganda mong katawan, lalo na sa abs mo. Abs lang yan. Tatanda ka rin at magkakaka-beer belly! Wala na akong pake kung marunong ka ng JiuJitsu, Taekwondo, Judo, Aikido, Arnis... Wala na akong pake sa dami ng fans mo.

ETCHOS.

Wala na namang magawa. Wala kasing ma-post na hindi masyadong controversial. HAHAHAHA.



Point is, no means no, unless stated otherwise. Whuuut? :)))

Labels: #cw, #life, %tagalog, %taglish, `ehem

There are things I can't seem to learn: Patience and Trust.

People mistake my lack of creativity of giving up and letting go as patience. There have been a lot of times that I just want to say "it's enough", but I can't think of a way to express it. Hindi ko maisip kung paano ko sasabihing, ayoko na. Then there are times that I make up my mind, I'm sure I want to end something, other things come up and won't let me to. 'Yun bang tipong, hindi ka pala pwedeng mag-give up. Kasi 'yun ang sabi ng society, or ng religion, or ng parents mo, or ng friends mo... And so I pretend to enjoy whatever's there. Then it becomes a "part" of normal life. I just ignore it.

Trust. I don't trust people completely. There's always a part on me that says, "baka gaguhin ka rin n'yan." Still, I'm the type of person that gives everything 'til I'm sure it's wrong to do so.
I started doubting when I told the truth and was accused of lying. It might have happened several times, but, one too many cases. It escalated when I lied and got away with it. Why is everybody trying to complicate everything?

The rain makes me think too much.

Labels: #life, %taglish, `life, `me, suicidal

Top: Dawal Beach Resort as seen from the shore. Below: From inside the resort, watching the sun set. (LOL)

I was lucky enough to be able to bring Marcgell along. Super Powers~!

Sunset over Zambales.

Marcgell: Picture'an kita! Ganto itsura mo oh!

Labels: #life, #update, %taglish, fireworks

I have so much in my mind RN.

Parang gusto ko ng isipin that life is not fair at all... At, oo, nagdadrama na naman ako. Wala na naman ako sa aking katinuhan. Kasi, malamang, hindi ako magbblog kung matino ako. :|


ARGH. I just hate hate hate those people right now. :((

When a tree falls down and no one's there to hear it, it still did make a sound. Law of conservation of energy. Sinabi ko na to dati, diba? Bat ba ang kukulit nyo? Kung nangyari, kahit hindi mo ipagsabi. Nangyari yun.

Wala na bang natirang may konsensya?


I don't know what to think anymore... I'm doubting every f-ing thing and everyone.

Labels: #life, %taglish, `death

MARCGELL ADRIAN,
Sorry for the times that I've been maarte. Sorry if naha-hassle ka dahil sakin. Sorry if I'm demanding. Sorry if I ask too much sometimes; sorry for the many times that I am irrational. Sorry for always making you an utusan. Sorry for being impossible. Sorry for bullying you. Sorry for harassing you, and by that I mean, sorry for biting you.

Thank you for sticking with me. Thank you for giving me what I ask from you, and more. :) Thank you for the extra effort to make me smile. Thank you for being my personal clown. Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for letting me bite you~! You train the inner lion in me. Rawr~! (Okay, no innuendos intended.) Thank you for letting me harass you, for being my human punching bag. Thank you for the hugs and kisses. Thank you for the times you set your pride aside for me. Thank you for the times you'd proudly show the world you have me, that you love me. :))

I really love you. I know how you're conscious about yourself. I want you to be yourself. Change when you're ready to change. Change when you see a good enough reason to change. I'm not pressuring you to be someone ideal. I want you to be who you want to be. And I hope you want to be someone good, atleast. :) And, I love you. I love you for being my stress-reliever. I love you for being my critic. I love you for being my Dad, most of the time. And, I love you for being mine.

Labels: #cw, %taglish, `life, fireworks

to my hs schoolmate, friend, kapakapatid, Geo

Labels: #drama, #life, %taglish, `friends, `life, sad

 

'Yung nagcoconflict 'yung gusto kong ma-achieve sa gusto kong gawin. Gusto kong pumasa, ayokong mag-aral. LOL

INTO IT: ONE MORE CHANCE
Tatlong beses ko ng napanood ang One More Chance pero ngayon ko lang siya naintindihan. Kasi, dati ang iniisip ko: Putang ina. Bakit naman sila nag-break kung mahal nila ang isa't-isa. Ano bang problema ni Basha? Buti nga concerned na concerned sa kaniya si Popoy. Grabe lang, 'di nalang niya pinagbigyan si Basha para 'di nalang sila naghiwalay? Putang ina naman. Bakit siya nakipag-relasyon kung mahal niya talaga si Basha? Tapos, itong si Basha, makikipag-break tapos iiyak-iyak noong nakapag-move on na si Popoy. Putang ina, ang tanga ng movie na 'to.

Pero, hindi pala.

Iniwan ni Basha si Popoy kasi hindi niya alam kung 'yung ginagawa niya ay dahil gusto n'ya, or dahil alam niya na gusto ni Popoy, or dahil 'yun nga mismo ang sabi ni Popoy. Gusto niyang malaman kung ano ba talaga ang gusto niya sa buhay. Choice niyang malaman kung 'yun ba 'yung gusto niyang future, 'yung kasama si Popoy, or nasanay lang siya dahil sa katagal-tagal na five years din silang magkasama. She was brave enough na ipusta 'yung five years na 'yun para lang malaman 'yung gusto niya.

Si Popoy, hindi agad-agad nakapag-move on, kasi hindi niya naintindihan 'yung reason ni Basha. Ang alam niya lang, sawa na siya, nasasakal na sya. Ang boring niya naman kasi talagang boyfriend, controlling pa. Akala niya kasi 'yung ginagawa niya ay para rin sa ikabubuti nilang dalawa, 'yung lahat planado, practical, at logical.

Nag-snap nalang si Popoy noong dinala ni Basha si Mark. Naisip niyang 'yun na 'yung time mag-move on. Wala namang nangyayari talaga sa pagiging malungkot niya lang. 'Yun bang, kung siya magmo-move on, eh di, ikaw rin. Sa totoo lang, mas maraming taong ganon, makikipag-unahang makahanap ng bago. Competitive kasi talaga by nature ang tao.

Naniniwala ako na minahal niya si Trysha (oh, di ko alam spelling. hahaha). Kasi si Popoy, naisip niya na 'yung type ng person na kailangan niya is 'yung type of person na ginusto niya maging si Basya. Example, 'yung wanting to be spoiled ni Trysha na ayaw naman ni Basya. Tapos, syempre, nag-change in to the person Basha wanted him to be rin sya at the same time. Ganun 'ata talaga after a break up. If you truly loved your ex, maiisip mo 'yung mga dahilan bat kayo naghiwalay, at ia-avoid mo na 'yun. Ia-avoid mo 'yun para di ka na masaktan, at di ka na makasakit.

Ang masama lang, nag-assume si Basha. Dahil alam niyang mahal na mahal siya ni Popoy, akala niya, 'di ito magmo-move on. Eh di, naguho mundo niya nung nalaman niyang may bagong girlfriend na si ex boyfriend. Tsaka niya na-realize kung ano talaga 'yung gusto niya sa buhay. Gusto niya lahat ng meron siya at that moment, plus si Popoy.

Sabi nga ni Crissy (idk the spelling, lol), nangyari 'yun kasi si Basha lang 'yung nag-acknowledge ng problema nila. At nasaktan silang pareho. Pero ang naisip lang kasi ni Popoy, 'yung sarili niya, na nasasaktan siya. Hindi niya naisip agad na, baka nasasaktan din si Basha.

At ayun. Nag-sex sila, tapos okay na. De, joke lang. Nag-heart-to-heart talk naman sila after.

Ang galing.

Note lang, bakit si Basya naka-high-heeled shoes, nasa site. Tangina. Baka mahulog siya!!! Okay na rin na hindi ako naging Engineer. Baka matulad ako sakanya, less poise nga lang,

Labels: #drama, #manic, %taglish, `films, `problem, into it

 

[A/N] I will try my best to make this as honest and revealing as I can get.

Before I went to bed, the last thing I remember is thinking of Nikka Apostol. I was texting her on my mind about the type of girls we were: cutie, animated, colorful, petite... Then all of a sudden I was in a room.

It was a block room, one side didn't have a wall and opened to what looked like a typical western neighborhood. Let's call this side "the hole". Opposite to that side, there was a single door. I was seated facing the door. Out came Jemar and Ashley, saying their hi's before leaving through the hole. Followed by Fed, amazingly holding a ball. Then came my first group of friends: Mea, Nae, and Paula. Nae sat across me, and on her right was Paula. Mea sat on my left. There was a table, btw.

"Ano 'yung issue na sabi nila, lagi nalang daw kayong sunod samin ni Mea?" Nae asked. I honestly don't know what she's talking about.

"Never heard of that issue."

"'Yung ano, sabi nga nila lagi lang daw kayong sunod samin?"

"Hind ko nga alam kung ano 'yan." I said, a little annoyed. I look at Paula who was playing with Nae's hair.

"Kunwari ka lang na hindi mo alam, pero alam kong alam mo." To me, I thought she was implying something, but her voice and facial expression are all too innocent.

"Hindi 'yan ang naririnig kong issue. Katext ko lang si Nikka kanina, wala naman kaming napag-usapang ganyan."

Nae made a "okay, whatever" face.

"Eh, ikaw. Bat ba ang init ng ulo mo sakin? Nakikipagbati ako sayo, ayaw mo. Hindi kita papansin, ayaw mo. Magrereact ako, ayaw mo. Ano ba talagang gusto mo?"

Paula let go of Nae's hair and sat straight, looking quite distressed. Nae, just looked, disappointed. I look at Mea and she was, idk why, blank. Non-moving, looking far beyond her knees. Not smiling, not frowning. Just blank.

"Bakit ba hindi tayo makapagbati-bati? We were friends before, it shouldn't be a problem."

"Sabi ko kasi sayo, eh-" I don't know who Paula directed this statement to.

And then Nix came saying she received my text.

What.

Labels: #cw, #update, %taglish, sad, text

 

[A/N] This is published late. The date lies.

Labels: #rant, %taglish, `problem, `school, murderous, text

 

PEOPLE WHO CAN'T WRITE, STOP MAKING BLOGS. YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO THE INTRICATE LAWS OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE.



Oo na, mayabang na ko. Oo na, feeling ko magaling ako, blah blah. Masama ugali ko. Boohoo.

[EDIT]
Okay, fine. People have their right to express themselves in ways they fancy. But, if running naked is prohibited by the law, writing blog posts should also be monitored closely. The cyber world is getting infiltrated by hipster. First with Facebook, and now advancing with Tumblr and Twitter. Before, there were only instagram crazies... but, now... They have discovered writing! O_o

Have mercy on us all...

Labels: #manic, #rant, %taglish, `internet, text

 

1. There is not enough love. Meaning, hindi niyo naman talaga mahal isa't-isa. Siguro lonely lang kayo, or trip, or tanga-tanga lang.

2. There's no trust / loyalty. Either, naglolokohan lang talaga kayo, or talagang walang tiwala.

3. There's no time for a relationship. Busy-busy'han. Iba ang priorities mo, which can be smart.

4. There's someone better.

5. "I am not happy." Hindi ka kontento. Hindi ka masaya.

6. (time in relationship) IS NOT PROPORTIONAL TO (strength of relationship) Hindi gumaganda ang relationship n'yo over time.


Hindi porket nagka-boyfriend(girlfriend) ka na ng lima and you're still 19, ibig sabihin bitch ka na, slut ka na.

Mag-boboyfriend ka kasi masaya ka with that person. 'Yung maiintindihan ka niya. 'Yung kaya ka niyang alagaan. 'Yung lahat ng kailangan mo, gagawin niya 'yung best nya para ibigay sayo.

Makikipaghiwalay ka kasi hindi ka masaya. Kasi andami mo ng reklamo sa buhay mo. Kasi hindi niya kayang intindihin yung mga kailangan mo. Kasi masyadong naaabuso yung pagmamahal mo para sakanya. Kasi wala kang space para maging boss. Kasi hindi mo kayang magdesisyong mag-isa, or, hindi ka pwedeng magdesisyong mag-isa. Kasi wala kang side of the story, sya lang at sya lang ang bida. MAKIKIPAGHIWALAY KA, KASI THERE IS SOMEONE BETTER THAN HIM/HER. Someone who will love you no matter what. Kasi meron pa 'yung ibabato sayo ng universe at sasabihing, "ayan, sayo yan, wala ng pipigil sainyo!"

Sana maging open minded ang lahat. At sana, wag na tayo mag-deny. Kung hindi ka masaya, hindi ka masaya. Wag na yung aarte pa na: Hindi ako masaya, pero mahal ko kasi siya. CHAKA! Kung mahal ka niya, masaya ka dapat!

BADVIBES.

Labels: %taglish, `love life, `problem, murderous, text

 

Labels: #random, %taglish, `love life, happy, text

 

A lot of people don't like Justin Bieber. They call him "gay", and that his songs are "lame" or "stupid" and such. And then there was Rebecca Black, "who doesn't have an ounce of talent", and having her own music video was "the worst thing that ever happened to the music industry". Now, there's this Hot Problems by Double Take. It's Justin Bieber and Rebecca Black allover again, times ten.

I'm not a fan of JB, nor Rebecca, nor this Double Take thing.

Labels: #manic, #random, #update, %taglish, `music

 

I'm with Lei, and someone else I don't remember, and the three of us is going to this pool party in some high-end resort. Sabi kasi sakin ni Lei, tutugtog ang FT Island. So, sumama ako.

When the gates opened, the scene was just magical. People having fun in a non-high way. Music blasted like a background music to a movie, I just can't figure out where it came from. There was a big pool at the far end, huts occupied half the space, and in the middle of the area was a make-shift bar. And then, there he was, the man I've so long wanted to meet, Choi Minhwan of FT Island. 'Di ko madescribe 'yung kilig na naramdaman ko. Agad-agad, I kinalabit ko na 'yung mga kasama ko and motioned them to follow me.

"Can we take a picture together?"

He looked at me and my heart melted like ice cream on a summer day. "Sure," he smiled at me. He put his drink down and stood up. Okay, he's tall. I'm, like, below his shoulder, so, he awkwardly sat down again. He put his hand on my arm and pulled me towards him. I felt like dying out of fangasm. His face beside mine. I felt his nose brush on my cheek as he looked at me. His breath on my cheek melted my already-slushie heart.

When the picture-taking was done, I looked at him. He was holding a phone on his left hand. "Can I get your number?" Praise the god of all gods! Just like that, he actually gave his number.

All the while, I kept on looking at him. He's just drinking, or rather, swirling the contents of his glass, looking relaxed. He seems to be just watching the party going on, like he's happy about everything around him. Suddenly, he saw me.

I broke eye-contact. I tried to look busy with my phone but I just remembered how easily I got his number. Wait. That's it. I got his number. I'll just text him. Ask him how he's doing.

I don't know why, or how, or if i'm dreaming, but it just happened. He's English isn't that good. I mean. Wow. Life is getting better and better every minute.

As the night grew older, more miracles seemed to happened. He was beside me, and he was just smiling. We didn't converse, to be honest. We shared a few broken words once in a while, but most of the time we just, looked at each other. i told him i was there because Lei told me they'd play. He said they weren't going to perform, and that the crowd doesn't seem to know him. He said he's happy someone recognized him. Until eyeing turned into holding hands, and touching faces... and... and then my phone rang. Marcgell asked me to meet him at the gates.

I went to the gates, and he was there. He kept on telling me things, and that he wanted to get inside. "No," I kept on telling him. "You can't come in here."

IDK how, but... things just happened.

And then I woke up. Thank God, Marcgell's still my boyfriend.

Labels: #cw, %taglish, `fandom, fireworks

 

I do my best to be a good friend and listen to people's concerns. I get so much drama from people's lives, aside from mine, sometimes I don't even want to listen anymore. Problema ko na 'to dati pa, kasi, hindi ako marunong humindi.

Labels: #list, %taglish, `life, `school, random

 

Every student has the freedom to run during the elections. But, since we're in UP, we are smart enough to ask ourselves if we're capable of having a position. We won't just suddenly think, AHA! I will run this elections as the chairperson, have nothing else to do, anyway.

Heart Diño, a pretty transgender, is the new University Student Council Chairperson. The Vice-Chairperson is another pretty face, Alex Castro, bisexual. Oh, and the prettiest face of Alyansa, Pat Bringas is now a councilor. Did I forget to mention Pat is short for Patrick?

People are making a fuzz about the USC being too full of LGBT. Why discriminate? We are all but human beings, with feelings.

Porket bakla na, di na kayang mag-serve? Kumpleto naman ang parte ng katawan nyan, sobra pa. Hindi dapat sa gender tinitignan ang galing ng isang tao.

Iba ang skills and talents ng isang tunay na lalake from a lesbian? Sa role ng pagiging ama, baka pwede mo pang i-claim 'yan. Pero, sa USC, I don't think so. PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT SKILLS AND TRAITS AND TALENTS. Hindi naman 'yan "set of talents" for men, women, gay, lesbians, transgenders. Iba naman talaga talents ko from another female. LABO LANG MEHN.

Chan said something that caught my attention kanina. "Sarili nya nga kaya nyang baguhin," meaning Pat Bringas. Tapos, naalala ko bigla. Oo nga naman. If you can start with yourself, then you can change a bigger picture. LIKE P.Noy Aquino, he can't change his smoking habbit, he can't change the Philippines for the better.


My point is, it's too early to judge. Each candidate was given the chance for equal time to campaign. Everyone in seat are the voters fault. If you didn't vote, 'wag magreklamo. If the one you vote for didn't one, eh, ano ngayon? Democratic tayo. UP has already chosen it's new set of leaders. Deal with it.

Para sa mga napakalakas ng loob mag-sabi ng "impeachment" at such an early stage, think about this: Life is a complete learning process. You are born with just three skills: eat, shit, breathe. You weren't asked to walk on the first hour, so don't set limits on other people as well. When we were born, our parents, the doctors, didn't tell you RIGHT AWAY what we'd have to be when we grow up. 

Do not judge something you don't know. Let's all give ourselves a chance: for the new Chair, a chance to serve the iskolars of Diliman; and for us, the chance to appreciate what the new Chair is willing to offer.


Nahilo ako sa sarili ko, English? Tagalog?
new tag: manic - for manic writing, rants

Labels: #life, %taglish, `school, manic

 

I finally figured out how to revert back to the old template. =___=;;

If you don't know, my ever pakealamerong boyfriend updated the template settings here in my blog. The configuration changed, and my theme went from perfect to garbage. I tried editing the template with the back-up I have (which, by the way, was way back from April of 2010). After it failed, I kinda accepted the fact that I will never again see this awesome blog of mine the way it used to be. I tried reasoning out with myself. Luma na rin naman, antagal na ng template na 'yun, panahon pa ni Marcos... I looked at themes, and ways to customize my current theme. But, as I go through pages and pages of pre-designed templates, I felt that I'm just looking for something that looked like my old one.

And, luckily, I was able to revert my blog back to the old template config.


Marcgell Adrian, I love you still, okay?

Labels: #update, %taglish

 

Kanina, nag-celebrate kami. Debut ni Marian. Ano, ang hyper ko lang. Gawa na rin siguro na tapos na 'yung Bio Lec and Lab exams. Eh, 'yun. Di, ang hyper ko. Tuwang-tuwa ako kay Mai. Ang ganda nya lang. Kahit na biglaan, at rush-rush lang mga nagawa namin for her, it seems na napasaya naman namin sya.

Naiinggit lang ako. Hindi dahil may surprise thing for her. Mas maayos pa nga 'yung akin nun, eh. Naiinggit ako, kasi, andun si Kuya whoever-that-is. Seems like, 'yun 'yung guy that likes Marian a lot. The whole time, andun s'ya, tahimik lang, pero, point is: andun s'ya. Tapos, syempre, naisayaw n'ya si Marian. Nung magkasama na actually sila, di na s'ya umalis sa tabi niya. Andun lang s'ya. Di sila nag-uusap, pero, point is: magkasama sila.

After nun, magkasama kaming lumabas ni Choi from NIGS. Well, well, well... Andun naman si Froi, sinusundo si Choi. (HAHAHA, funny lang, nagr-rhyme 'yung names nila.) Eh di, sawsaw na naman ako. Mga tatlo o apat na beses ng nangyari 'to. Sinusundo or hinahatid ni Froi si Choi, tas kasama rin ako. Kapag magkakasama kami, ako lang lagi 'yung maingay. Madaldal ako. Nagkukwento lang ako ng kung anu-ano. Di sila nakakapag-usap dahil sakin. Kasi, syempre, nagkukwento ako. Sumasagot naman sila, nakikitawa naman sila. Sabi nga ni Choi, "ako kasi ang boss." Pero, kahit ganun, magka-holding hands naman sila.


Sa tambayan naman, lagi kong nakikita sina Irah at ML. Ang sweet lang din nila... minsan. Minsan, nagkukulitan sila, nag-aaway. PERO, kahit na. Magkasama pa rin sila. Nakikita ko sina Gel at Albei, 'yung isa sakanila napapagod kakahintay / kakahanap sa isa. PERO, in the end, may dumarating, may nahahanap, nagkakasama sila.


Naiinggit ako. Naiinggit ako na may sumusundo sakanila, naghahatid.  Naiinggit ako na may kasama silang kumain. Naiinggit ako na may naghahawak ng kamay nila pag naglalakad. Naiinggit ako na may naghihintay sakanila after class. Naiinggit ako na every single day, may chance silang magkita at magkasama. Naiinggit ako na, kahit wala masyadong nangyayari sa buong araw, nagkasama naman sila. Naiinggit ako na, sila, may daily routines together. Naiinggit ako. Naiinggit talaga ako na magkakasama sila.

FUCK DISTANCE.

Pero, anong magagawa ko? Andito na 'ko, eh. LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP. Ilalaban ko 'to. Kahit walang sumusundo at naghahatid sakin, kahit walang nagdadala ng pagkain sa dorm, kahit walang nag-aantay sakin after class, kahit wala akong ka-holding hands sa SC, kahit wala akong mahawakan at ma-hug na boyfriend ko every school day... Alam ko naman sa sarili ko, pinili ko pa ring maging boyfriend si Marcgell kasi mahal ko talaga s'ya. Hindi dahil nasanay akong kasama sya. Hindi dahil kaya niya akong sunduin at ihatid. Hindi dahil malapit siya, hindi dahil convenient.
Boyfriend ko siya, kasi, mahal ko siya.

Mahirap, kasi sobrang namimiss ko siya. Tapos ang hirap pa, kasi, hindi naman pwedeng every weekend andito siya, or andun ako. May org siya, may soro ako, may exams pag weekend, may exams pag monday... Mahirap mag-hanap ng time para magkasama kami. Pero, naipipilit pa rin naman namin. It makes it more special, too. It's because we don't always see each other that we value our little time together. There's no time for anything else but love.

Labels: #update, %taglish, `me

 

Madalas akong tanungin ni Marcgell, "'di ka ba naniniwala?"

'Di raw ba ako naniniwala na mahal nya ako? Or, na ako lang? Or this, or that? Hindi ko diretsong masagot ang tanong na ito. Iba kasi kapag trust at faith 'yung issue.

Labels: #life, %taglish, `life, `me

 

Andami kong gustong i-blog.

This weekend, as in Saturday and Sunday, lang siguro ang matinong rest day, ulet, for a very long time.
BUT, I'm not complaining for the lack of time to do nothing. I love having something to do. Since, ayoko ng dull moments with just myself.

Anyway, like I said, andami kong gustong i-post. I want to talk about Mommy Cams, Ninang Kim, Rock Infinitum 3, Marcgell, Christmas, my Lola Lily, Marcgell, my batchmates, and some other stuff... like acads. 'Cause I have that, too. :|


Anyway, I really missed Mommy Cams. It's been two months, and, well... Ayokong masanay na wala sya. I'm so glad na nag-attend sya ng Rock Infinitum 3. Tho, hindi kami nakapag-kwentuhan, ang saya ko pa rin na nakita ko sya, busy, hyper. Buti na rin at dumating sya, since may nag-entertain ng alumni. (Totally forgot about that. :O Oops.)

Saludo ako kay Ninang Kim. Hindi ko sya piniling maging ninang, at wala lang talaga akong choice noon, na, parang binigay talaga sya ni God para maging ninang ko. x) Hala. OA na. Anyway, maganda grades n'ya, may social life siya, at ang sexy nya talaga. x___x Someday, I'll be like her. HAHAHAHA.

Hindi ko na naman pinag-iisipan mga sinasabi ko dito...

Jejemon.

Labels: #update, %taglish, `life, `school

 

Why do you always find your way into my blog?



Dahil ba, gustong-gusto kita noon, feeling mo, gustong-gusto pa rin kita ngayon? Dahil ba, lagi-lagi kitang pinapanuod noon (actually, pati ngayon), feeling mo, gustong-gusto pa rin kita?

Iniwan mo na nga ako para dun sa pangit mong girlfriend, diba? Oh, wait. Ex-girlfriend pala.

Tapos, ngayon, feeling mo, may babalikan ka pa?

Hindi na kita pupuntahan. Kahit sunduin mo pa ko, hindi na kita pupuntahan. Kahit naka-limousine ka pa, kahit naka-white horse ka pa, hinding-hindi ako sasama sayo. Kahit dalhin mo pa mga banda mo from wherever, kahit dalhin mo pa buong Pep Squad (pa-obvious naman), hinding-hindi mo na mababago isip ko. Kahit gawan mo pa ko ng kanta, kahit gawan pa nila ako ng 15-minute routine, hinding-hindi na talaga magbabago isip ko. Kahit. Hindi pa rin.

Wala na akong pake sa gwapo mong mukha, sa maganda mong katawan, lalo na sa abs mo. Abs lang yan. Tatanda ka rin at magkakaka-beer belly! Wala na akong pake kung marunong ka ng JiuJitsu, Taekwondo, Judo, Aikido, Arnis... Wala na akong pake sa dami ng fans mo.

ETCHOS.

Wala na namang magawa. Wala kasing ma-post na hindi masyadong controversial. HAHAHAHA.



Point is, no means no, unless stated otherwise. Whuuut? :)))

Labels: #cw, #life, %tagalog, %taglish, `ehem

 

There are things I can't seem to learn: Patience and Trust.

People mistake my lack of creativity of giving up and letting go as patience. There have been a lot of times that I just want to say "it's enough", but I can't think of a way to express it. Hindi ko maisip kung paano ko sasabihing, ayoko na. Then there are times that I make up my mind, I'm sure I want to end something, other things come up and won't let me to. 'Yun bang tipong, hindi ka pala pwedeng mag-give up. Kasi 'yun ang sabi ng society, or ng religion, or ng parents mo, or ng friends mo... And so I pretend to enjoy whatever's there. Then it becomes a "part" of normal life. I just ignore it.

Trust. I don't trust people completely. There's always a part on me that says, "baka gaguhin ka rin n'yan." Still, I'm the type of person that gives everything 'til I'm sure it's wrong to do so.
I started doubting when I told the truth and was accused of lying. It might have happened several times, but, one too many cases. It escalated when I lied and got away with it. Why is everybody trying to complicate everything?

The rain makes me think too much.

Labels: #life, %taglish, `life, `me, suicidal

 

Top: Dawal Beach Resort as seen from the shore. Below: From inside the resort, watching the sun set. (LOL)

I was lucky enough to be able to bring Marcgell along. Super Powers~!

Sunset over Zambales.

Marcgell: Picture'an kita! Ganto itsura mo oh!

Labels: #life, #update, %taglish, fireworks

 

I have so much in my mind RN.

Parang gusto ko ng isipin that life is not fair at all... At, oo, nagdadrama na naman ako. Wala na naman ako sa aking katinuhan. Kasi, malamang, hindi ako magbblog kung matino ako. :|


ARGH. I just hate hate hate those people right now. :((

When a tree falls down and no one's there to hear it, it still did make a sound. Law of conservation of energy. Sinabi ko na to dati, diba? Bat ba ang kukulit nyo? Kung nangyari, kahit hindi mo ipagsabi. Nangyari yun.

Wala na bang natirang may konsensya?


I don't know what to think anymore... I'm doubting every f-ing thing and everyone.

Labels: #life, %taglish, `death

 

MARCGELL ADRIAN,
Sorry for the times that I've been maarte. Sorry if naha-hassle ka dahil sakin. Sorry if I'm demanding. Sorry if I ask too much sometimes; sorry for the many times that I am irrational. Sorry for always making you an utusan. Sorry for being impossible. Sorry for bullying you. Sorry for harassing you, and by that I mean, sorry for biting you.

Thank you for sticking with me. Thank you for giving me what I ask from you, and more. :) Thank you for the extra effort to make me smile. Thank you for being my personal clown. Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for letting me bite you~! You train the inner lion in me. Rawr~! (Okay, no innuendos intended.) Thank you for letting me harass you, for being my human punching bag. Thank you for the hugs and kisses. Thank you for the times you set your pride aside for me. Thank you for the times you'd proudly show the world you have me, that you love me. :))

I really love you. I know how you're conscious about yourself. I want you to be yourself. Change when you're ready to change. Change when you see a good enough reason to change. I'm not pressuring you to be someone ideal. I want you to be who you want to be. And I hope you want to be someone good, atleast. :) And, I love you. I love you for being my stress-reliever. I love you for being my critic. I love you for being my Dad, most of the time. And, I love you for being mine.

Labels: #cw, %taglish, `life, fireworks