Suicidal Foot 4.0 - Hell Break
This blog contains five years worth of rants and babbles. It is not for the faint hearted, nor the nosy, nor for the narrow minded. It does not discriminate sex nor religious preferences. It loves you because nobody ever will. All hail Suicidal Foot! All hail the drama queen who writes, and her little servant boy!
Thursday, October 25, 2012 @ 2:25:00 AM
[late post] BIG BANG ALIVE CONCERT.

Excited Bunny is excited!
I can not put into the words the feelings I had in that concert. My summary would be: "wtfawesomeshitseungrycriesfeels omgicant feelstoomuchfeels." I am sorry.

I would just want to thank my boyfriend for making this experience possible. You are the best! Thank you! I love you so much!

Labels: , , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
Monday, October 22, 2012 @ 2:06:00 AM
[late post] BIHAWO OUTREACH 2012.

Marcgell and I went to ATC for the gaming expo. We participated in the scavengers hunt by PC Express. We also met up with his couple orgmates to eat. Basically, we went out for a date before I needed to leave for the Bihawo Outreach, when something really weird happened. Lady Boss asked if I was bringing Marcgell along. I told her that she already said one too many "no non-KappaThEDs allowed". She said papayag naman s'ya basta magpaalam ng maayos. So, I took advantage and asked if I could bring my boyfriend along. Luckily, I was able to bring him along, for the second time around.

I asked Marcgell to lend me shirts because I no longer had clothes. We ended up looking crazy on the first day of the outreach.

I'm really not good with kids. I will murder them. I swear. But, you know, I couldn't because we were there to help them instead. Haha. I was able to endure a day-long play-work with the kids. We did lectures on disaster preparedness, too. Mine was totally impromptu, because, well, I didn't research, I didn't listen, too. But, I think I did a pretty good job with the basics. Haha :)

I loved the part where we gave out sleepers. Most kids preferred looks over quality. It is one of the many luxuries their situation can not afford. I tried my best to convince them to go for the quality, but, kids will be kids. We were there to make them happy.



Karla, Lady Boss Mich, Inah, Meeee, Lia


zebraaaaa


The night at Dawal, I was not able to enjoy to the fullest. When Irah and I went in our room to rest after dinner, we fell asleep. Funny thing is, Marcgell and ML were there watching TV with us. THEY DIDN'T EVEN WOKE US UP. They just left us and went to drink and have fun with the rest of the world. Brod Love jokingly said it was really what ML and Marcgell planned, to get us to bed early so they can have a look-out for possible hit-ons. When Irah and I woke up, it was already curfew, they were no longer releasing drinks, and everyone were told to go to bed. Bad thing, too, was Marcgell being kinda drunk. Since I'm not the kind that takes care of drunk people (since I'm the drunk person, on most occasions), Irah took care of my boyfriend for me. Haha. ML and I were just cheerleaders.

Irah and I had a private pool party the next day, well, not that private. We were joined by Inah, Albei, and our boyfriends ML and Marcgell. They tried teaching us to swim. Hahaha. :)) We also had some chismis over lunch.

T'was fun without the booze. Next year again, definitely!

Labels: , , , , , , , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
Sunday, October 14, 2012 @ 5:51:00 PM
Reasons Why I Love Marcgell.

1. He is my friend.
He knows me more than anyone else. Well, he used to. Now that we're together, there seems to be things we don't want to hear from each other. But, still, he knows me well.

2. He keeps me sane.
After driving me insane. Parang politiko. Will secretly destroy roads para asahan parin ng masa. Charot.

3. He needs me. I need him
Because I will be there for you even when I hate you.

4. He is always thinking of logical solutions.
Unlike me who acts on feelings.

5. He thinks highly of himself.

6. He is a fan.
I know. All you guys are my fans.

7. He puts up with me.
Very patient. Unlike me.

8. Considerate.
Unlike me.

adding...

9. He let's me eat whatever I want.
...most of the time.

10. He's always telling me that akin lang sya.

Labels: , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
@ 5:22:00 AM
Into It: The Lonely Island.

I knew of Lonely Island from the I Just Had Sex music video, and the LIKE A BOSS meme.

Why are they famous?

I watched almost all their videos and I have realized their songs suck. They have great music, mix it shitty lyrics. They have great feats, but the main vocals are just wtf. It's so disturbing.


BUT THEY ARE REALLY FUNNY. OKAY? Bye.


Labels: ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
Friday, October 12, 2012 @ 5:44:00 AM
.


Don't forget.
posted by LOR | Permalink
Sunday, October 7, 2012 @ 9:36:00 PM
ang gulo ng isipan ko (edited).

'Yung nagcoconflict 'yung gusto kong ma-achieve sa gusto kong gawin. Gusto kong pumasa, ayokong mag-aral. LOL

INTO IT: ONE MORE CHANCE
Tatlong beses ko ng napanood ang One More Chance pero ngayon ko lang siya naintindihan. Kasi, dati ang iniisip ko: Putang ina. Bakit naman sila nag-break kung mahal nila ang isa't-isa. Ano bang problema ni Basha? Buti nga concerned na concerned sa kaniya si Popoy. Grabe lang, 'di nalang niya pinagbigyan si Basha para 'di nalang sila naghiwalay? Putang ina naman. Bakit siya nakipag-relasyon kung mahal niya talaga si Basha? Tapos, itong si Basha, makikipag-break tapos iiyak-iyak noong nakapag-move on na si Popoy. Putang ina, ang tanga ng movie na 'to.

Pero, hindi pala.

Iniwan ni Basha si Popoy kasi hindi niya alam kung 'yung ginagawa niya ay dahil gusto n'ya, or dahil alam niya na gusto ni Popoy, or dahil 'yun nga mismo ang sabi ni Popoy. Gusto niyang malaman kung ano ba talaga ang gusto niya sa buhay. Choice niyang malaman kung 'yun ba 'yung gusto niyang future, 'yung kasama si Popoy, or nasanay lang siya dahil sa katagal-tagal na five years din silang magkasama. She was brave enough na ipusta 'yung five years na 'yun para lang malaman 'yung gusto niya.

Si Popoy, hindi agad-agad nakapag-move on, kasi hindi niya naintindihan 'yung reason ni Basha. Ang alam niya lang, sawa na siya, nasasakal na sya. Ang boring niya naman kasi talagang boyfriend, controlling pa. Akala niya kasi 'yung ginagawa niya ay para rin sa ikabubuti nilang dalawa, 'yung lahat planado, practical, at logical.

Nag-snap nalang si Popoy noong dinala ni Basha si Mark. Naisip niyang 'yun na 'yung time mag-move on. Wala namang nangyayari talaga sa pagiging malungkot niya lang. 'Yun bang, kung siya magmo-move on, eh di, ikaw rin. Sa totoo lang, mas maraming taong ganon, makikipag-unahang makahanap ng bago. Competitive kasi talaga by nature ang tao.

Naniniwala ako na minahal niya si Trysha (oh, di ko alam spelling. hahaha). Kasi si Popoy, naisip niya na 'yung type ng person na kailangan niya is 'yung type of person na ginusto niya maging si Basya. Example, 'yung wanting to be spoiled ni Trysha na ayaw naman ni Basya. Tapos, syempre, nag-change in to the person Basha wanted him to be rin sya at the same time. Ganun 'ata talaga after a break up. If you truly loved your ex, maiisip mo 'yung mga dahilan bat kayo naghiwalay, at ia-avoid mo na 'yun. Ia-avoid mo 'yun para di ka na masaktan, at di ka na makasakit.

Ang masama lang, nag-assume si Basha. Dahil alam niyang mahal na mahal siya ni Popoy, akala niya, 'di ito magmo-move on. Eh di, naguho mundo niya nung nalaman niyang may bagong girlfriend na si ex boyfriend. Tsaka niya na-realize kung ano talaga 'yung gusto niya sa buhay. Gusto niya lahat ng meron siya at that moment, plus si Popoy.

Sabi nga ni Crissy (idk the spelling, lol), nangyari 'yun kasi si Basha lang 'yung nag-acknowledge ng problema nila. At nasaktan silang pareho. Pero ang naisip lang kasi ni Popoy, 'yung sarili niya, na nasasaktan siya. Hindi niya naisip agad na, baka nasasaktan din si Basha.

At ayun. Nag-sex sila, tapos okay na. De, joke lang. Nag-heart-to-heart talk naman sila after.

Ang galing.

Note lang, bakit si Basya naka-high-heeled shoes, nasa site. Tangina. Baka mahulog siya!!! Okay na rin na hindi ako naging Engineer. Baka matulad ako sakanya, less poise nga lang,

Labels: , , , , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
Friday, October 5, 2012 @ 2:29:00 AM
Romona Flower's Exes' Problems.

It's so awkward meeting an ex-boyfriend's girlfriend. Whether you say you have moved on, you'll still ask yourself, "why her?"

I am close to my ex boyfriends, Chino and Kevin. I love them. They are great guys that have been such a big part of my life. I am close to them because I realized that I need them to be just friends, rather than the probable "other half".

Anyway, Chino's girlfriend after me was a girl named Nicole. She was my classmate from prep, haha. I thought, wow, why her? She's a slut. She looks like a slut. She acts like a slut. Did he, like, change preferences? Gross. They broke up after a few months. Thankfully.

Next was Eighteen. Honestly, I liked her. She is pretty, she had great taste in music, very artistic, very cute, very smart... But, I didn't like her because I felt like she was so much like me (okay, feelingera). It  just feels wrong to me that he is dating someone who was so much like me. But, she's quite prettier, and way richer than me. I'm not sure if they're still together, tho.

Kevin had a few number of short time girlfriends after me. He felt that he needed to take revenge on the whole population of females because I broke his heart blah blah. But, after some time, he snapped out of it and we finally resolved our issue. And we became friends. When I was in Pisay, even if I didn't post it on FB or Twitter, even if I don't text him, he would contact me at the right times, when I couldn't talk to anybody else. He'd suddenly text, "Sana okay ka lang, kumusta ka na?" Or, "Umiinom ka sana ng gamot, sana hindi na sumasakit 'yung tiyan mo." He's such a sweet guy.

When he found his recent girlfriend, my first thoughts were, "engk. Bland. Blank. Ordinary." But he loved her so much, so I gave her a chance. After a few years, my dislike grew because she's such a bitch, had poor manners, was illogical. But, what she had that I didn't have was dedication. She wanted to stay with him. She was so in-love to the point of driving him away from the rest of the world.  He broke up with her. Good decision, too.

Why do I look at my exes' girlfriends and evaluate them?
1. I want to know what those girls have that I didn't have. Most of the time it's patience. I had the fun, and the care, but not the understanding.
2. I care about them. If they were to have girlfriends, they should have the best. Better than me in everything. And, poor them, there's no such girl better than me. Haha.

The point of this post is: My latest ex-boyfriend is now committed and I can't get over the fact that I don't like her, and that she is nothing like me. I guess that's what he wants, nothing like me. 

Labels: , , , , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
Thursday, October 4, 2012 @ 10:30:00 PM
.


^this is a 2,500$ worth pc. better to have low chances than none at all. come join


this post looks suspicious i know, but i am just lazy to make it look good. i hope my editor fixes this if she has time. anw, join. it is not a scam. it is legit. let us enjoy!!!

Labels: , , ,

posted by Unknown | Permalink
@ 3:34:00 PM
I had a dream last night.

[A/N] I will try my best to make this as honest and revealing as I can get.

Before I went to bed, the last thing I remember is thinking of Nikka Apostol. I was texting her on my mind about the type of girls we were: cutie, animated, colorful, petite... Then all of a sudden I was in a room.

It was a block room, one side didn't have a wall and opened to what looked like a typical western neighborhood. Let's call this side "the hole". Opposite to that side, there was a single door. I was seated facing the door. Out came Jemar and Ashley, saying their hi's before leaving through the hole. Followed by Fed, amazingly holding a ball. Then came my first group of friends: Mea, Nae, and Paula. Nae sat across me, and on her right was Paula. Mea sat on my left. There was a table, btw.

"Ano 'yung issue na sabi nila, lagi nalang daw kayong sunod samin ni Mea?" Nae asked. I honestly don't know what she's talking about.

"Never heard of that issue."

"'Yung ano, sabi nga nila lagi lang daw kayong sunod samin?"

"Hind ko nga alam kung ano 'yan." I said, a little annoyed. I look at Paula who was playing with Nae's hair.

"Kunwari ka lang na hindi mo alam, pero alam kong alam mo." To me, I thought she was implying something, but her voice and facial expression are all too innocent.

"Hindi 'yan ang naririnig kong issue. Katext ko lang si Nikka kanina, wala naman kaming napag-usapang ganyan."

Nae made a "okay, whatever" face.

"Eh, ikaw. Bat ba ang init ng ulo mo sakin? Nakikipagbati ako sayo, ayaw mo. Hindi kita papansin, ayaw mo. Magrereact ako, ayaw mo. Ano ba talagang gusto mo?"

Paula let go of Nae's hair and sat straight, looking quite distressed. Nae, just looked, disappointed. I look at Mea and she was, idk why, blank. Non-moving, looking far beyond her knees. Not smiling, not frowning. Just blank.

"Bakit ba hindi tayo makapagbati-bati? We were friends before, it shouldn't be a problem."

"Sabi ko kasi sayo, eh-" I don't know who Paula directed this statement to.

And then Nix came saying she received my text.

What.

Labels: , , , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink
Tuesday, October 2, 2012 @ 4:43:00 PM
RIP Online Freedom (edited).

RIP, Freedom of Speech & Freedom of Expression

[A/N] Ipinupusta ko ang limang taong kasama ko ang url na http://suicidalfoot.blogspot.com. I moved my blog in a not so very secret place, and here goes nothing...

I have read most of the Cybercrime Prevention Act of 2012, but not all of it. I may be wrong and I apologize in advance to whoever might get offended with this post.

We are in the digital age. We use our computers and phones to communicate, share, and discover. Facebook and Twitter have both became powerful tools of information dissemination. Aside from products and services, and events, and people, politic propaganda has also reached the said social networking site. Supporters of politicians bash each other. Parody accounts humiliated and branded a lot of corrupt and obviously incompetent politicians. But this "law" is beyond Facebook status and Twitter updates.

I am sure that at one point in our lives we have illegally downloaded copyrighted music, photos, videos; and some probably illegally shared their illegally acquired media. It is not that we want to harm industries that are concerned. When I was first introduced to the internet, I did not know that I was doing something illegal. I might have downloaded gigabytes of illegal media before I found out it was wrong. But, I could not do much about it. I did not know how to buy songs online, or why the need to pay for hard copies of magazines that had scans. And, how about our anime? Should I fly to Japan and buy them, and there won't be any subtitles, too?! And besides, it's already uploaded, I might as well take advantage of it.

Still, the Government is right: sharing copyrighted files is illegal.

I have been ranting for 5 years know, about school, about life, sometimes about the Government, too. I express my opinions and my raged thoughts. I believe it is my freedom to say what I want in my blog. It is, afterall, my blog. I am not asking my readers to agree with me. I am just starting an argument in their minds, to start them thinking on their own. I fuel their interest.

I would understand censoring Facebook and Twitter. This may be hard for me to say, but, I guess it makes sense. A lot of people will be influenced if someone said something in FB and Twitter. Worse part is, most of these people would not even know the whole story. Because it is a social networking site, you most like scroll through it, LIKE it, or RETWEET it, and then move on to the other topics shared. Because of the fast-paced online life in social networking sites, we either agree or disagree, most of the time without question.

But, a Cybercrime Prevention Law is not the answer to this. Whichever angle you look at it, this is an oppression of the Freedom of Speech and Freedom of Expression. Why not just tell people to be informed first before liking a page or a post, or before sharing a propaganda photo. (Okay, look who's talking, the girl who didn't even read the act in it's entirety).

How about cybersex? Seriously, guys. Do we still need to talk about this? If women and kids are being sold online, then, yes, that is obviously illegal. I'm sure there's a law for that already. But, what about two knowing, willing people (gender sensitive)? I think it is my choice to send a nude picture to my boyfriend if he asked for it. If I was offended we could talk about it like grown-ups. If I was harassed, why did I even have him as my boyfriend in the first place, right? Anyway, you say, what if they are strangers who just met online. One time they agreed to do webcam, then suddenly, the other party is jerkin' off. Well, I say, close that shit and delete that person from your network. You know, you have the power to block people from whatever accounts you are using. That's the magic of internet, baby.

I think it is time for us to grow up. This should not be such a big issue. It doesn't need a genius to figure out that this Cybercrime Prevention Law is just another excuse to use taxpayers' money.

#NoToCyberCrimeLaw

Labels: , , , , , , ,

posted by LOR | Permalink