RIP, Freedom of Speech & Freedom of Expression
[A/N] Ipinupusta ko ang limang taong kasama ko ang url na http://suicidalfoot.blogspot.com. I moved my blog in a not so very secret place, and here goes nothing...
I have read most of the Cybercrime Prevention Act of 2012, but not all of it. I may be wrong and I apologize in advance to whoever might get offended with this post.
We are in the digital age. We use our computers and phones to communicate, share, and discover. Facebook and Twitter have both became powerful tools of information dissemination. Aside from products and services, and events, and people, politic propaganda has also reached the said social networking site. Supporters of politicians bash each other. Parody accounts humiliated and branded a lot of corrupt and obviously incompetent politicians. But this "law" is beyond Facebook status and Twitter updates.
I am sure that at one point in our lives we have illegally downloaded copyrighted music, photos, videos; and some probably illegally shared their illegally acquired media. It is not that we want to harm industries that are concerned. When I was first introduced to the internet, I did not know that I was doing something illegal. I might have downloaded gigabytes of illegal media before I found out it was wrong. But, I could not do much about it. I did not know how to buy songs online, or why the need to pay for hard copies of magazines that had scans. And, how about our anime? Should I fly to Japan and buy them, and there won't be any subtitles, too?! And besides, it's already uploaded, I might as well take advantage of it.
Still, the Government is right: sharing copyrighted files is illegal.
I have been ranting for 5 years know, about school, about life, sometimes about the Government, too. I express my opinions and my raged thoughts. I believe it is my freedom to say what I want in my blog. It is, afterall, my blog. I am not asking my readers to agree with me. I am just starting an argument in their minds, to start them thinking on their own. I fuel their interest.
I would understand censoring Facebook and Twitter. This may be hard for me to say, but, I guess it makes sense. A lot of people will be influenced if someone said something in FB and Twitter. Worse part is, most of these people would not even know the whole story. Because it is a social networking site, you most like scroll through it, LIKE it, or RETWEET it, and then move on to the other topics shared. Because of the fast-paced online life in social networking sites, we either agree or disagree, most of the time without question.
But, a Cybercrime Prevention Law is not the answer to this. Whichever angle you look at it, this is an oppression of the Freedom of Speech and Freedom of Expression. Why not just tell people to be informed first before liking a page or a post, or before sharing a propaganda photo. (Okay, look who's talking, the girl who didn't even read the act in it's entirety).
How about cybersex? Seriously, guys. Do we still need to talk about this? If women and kids are being sold online, then, yes, that is obviously illegal. I'm sure there's a law for that already. But, what about two knowing, willing people (gender sensitive)? I think it is my choice to send a nude picture to my boyfriend if he asked for it. If I was offended we could talk about it like grown-ups. If I was harassed, why did I even have him as my boyfriend in the first place, right? Anyway, you say, what if they are strangers who just met online. One time they agreed to do webcam, then suddenly, the other party is jerkin' off. Well, I say, close that shit and delete that person from your network. You know, you have the power to block people from whatever accounts you are using. That's the magic of internet, baby.
I think it is time for us to grow up. This should not be such a big issue. It doesn't need a genius to figure out that this Cybercrime Prevention Law is just another excuse to use taxpayers' money.
#NoToCyberCrimeLawLabels: #manic, #rant, %english, `death, `internet, `problem, murderous, text
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I have so much in my mind RN.
Parang gusto ko ng isipin that life is not fair at all... At, oo, nagdadrama na naman ako. Wala na naman ako sa aking katinuhan. Kasi, malamang, hindi ako magbblog kung matino ako. :|
ARGH. I just hate hate hate those people right now. :((
When a tree falls down and no one's there to hear it, it still did make a sound. Law of conservation of energy. Sinabi ko na to dati, diba? Bat ba ang kukulit nyo? Kung nangyari, kahit hindi mo ipagsabi. Nangyari yun.
Wala na bang natirang may konsensya?
I don't know what to think anymore... I'm doubting every f-ing thing and everyone. Labels: #life, %taglish, `death
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Giving up and letting go are two different things.
You already failed an exam. The act of surrender is not giving up. It's letting go. You're going to be late for class. The act of surrender is giving up, not letting go.
If there is still a chance for change and you just drop everything, that's giving up. Cowardice, prolly. But if there's 0% chance, as in none, ze-o-ro chance, then you should just let it go. Just move on...
And so we should never give up on life, and just let go of the bad things... Labels: #cw, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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Summer Term nung unang mangyari sakin 'to. Tapos, kahapon ulit. Tapos ngayon na naman.
Hindi ako makasend ng message, can't make calls. Hindi rin makareceive ng texts/calls. WTH is happening? Nung unang time, 8-10 hours nawala yung services sakin. Naka-Super25 ako nun, kung 'yun man tawag sa one day unlitext & unlicall. Sayang 'yung unli ko. HINDI KO MAN LANG MATAWAGAN 'YUNG CUSTOMER SERVICE. >:| Walang kwenta. Nagpaload pa ulit ako nun, kasi baka nawalan ako ng load. Pero, 'yun nga, di ko rin naman mareceive 'yung load. Di man lang ako makapag-inquire ng balance. TANGINA TALAGA.
Kahapon, dalawang oras ulit. Nakaka-badtrip lang talaga. Paano naman 'yung unli ko.
Tapos, right now, it's happening for the third FUCKING time.
Sana mabasa ito ng GLOBE TELECOM. Kung magddown naman kayo ng certain number, sana may confirmation muna! At, paano naman kung may emergency? >:| Hindi nyo man lang pinalitan 'yung nasayang na time. Sorry po ha. Hindi lang kasi ako sanay sa trash-ish na services niyo since I've always been a Smart user. Babalik na nga lang ako sa Smart.>:| BADTRIP. Labels: #update, %taglish, `death, `life
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Make the most out of it.
People started re-connecting with me. Wondering how I've been, how I am. It's nice that they're here when I don't have much left.
People started apologizing. Which is super weird. Was it because of the Brotip? "Don't do bad things to people who have blogs"? I don't just mean one person, there were a few. I never knew they were making fun of me, :/ And I still don't know how to handle confessions of such acts. I can't hate these people, I pushed them away, they have the right to hate me.
But, I am waiting for one person to be real. Whoever that person is. I wish I could personally tell that person to go fjbisvkjbksjfkjnfdn in hell. :( Labels: #update, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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[EDIT] SHIT. T_____T I can't believe I almost... sorry.
There will be no scheduled posts. I'll post when I get the time. Labels: #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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I'm sorry about what I've said. I'm sorry about the things I've thought of. I'm sorry about the things I've done.
I'm sorry that there are words I never said. I'm sorry if I have a limited mind. I'm sorry for the things I didn't do.
Up to the end, I can't hurt you... Labels: #update, %english, `death, `me, suicidal
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I wonder if I'm being mean. Most of the time, I'm not thinking of what I'm saying... And right now, I'm speaking with a broken (better yet, shattered) heart. The things I know of, I mention. Things I don't know of, I think of worse.
I still just can't believe one of my supposedly best friends would do this to me. Labels: #life, #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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Sometimes, for some fucked up reasons, things cloud your mind and you become uncertain about a few things in life. After some time, it'll prolly turn out well. If not, it's best try to figure things out on your own. Don't make things worse. Kumbaga, kung nagkasakit ka, at hindi enough and tubig at pahinga, DUDE, UMINOM KA NA NG GAMOT.
But, what if you're unsure for so long? What if it's periodic? Why the fucking hell are you doubting?
OKAY, I'm not going to try and work this out in other ways, I'll just go straight to the point... Or, random points.
For you, what is Love? EEW. SCRATCH THAT.
There are times that you "feel" you love someone. That's to say, "you are in-love". When you say "you're in-love", it doesn't necessarily mean you are loving. Being in-love with someone is different from loving someone. Well, atleast that's what I've read. And from how I use the words "in-love", I think it's safe to say that you don't necessarily love the person you're in-love with. You might just admire them so much. You're a fan. You're a follower... You're something other than a lover.
And then there's this feeling of being in-love with the relationship. Maybe you don't love the person, you just love the idea of having him/her in your life as your special someone... or one of your special persons. *coughwhorecough*
Convenience. It's common among people I personally know. They are in a relationship with someone they've know for sometime, and both parties have agreed that they need each other. Love comes afterwards... most of the time. It's having a relationship with someone you can be with for a long time without getting tired... someone who knows you, and knows how to deal with you. They're what you need, and of course, you should be what they'd need.
IDK what I'm saying, rly. I'm just randomly spilling what's in my mind... at 1:54 AM. And my class is 7AM-4PM.
Shit happens.
KBye.
Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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Everybody faces a wide range of failures everyday. But not everybody knows how to deal with failure. Not everybody is patient enough, or confident enough, that there is a better tomorrow. Giving up is always my option. When I'm facing a problem, I usually spend 50% of the time convincing myself not to give up, 25% trying to think of something else (ignoring the problem), 15% worrying (crying, and feeling terrible), and just 10% of actual problem solving (thinking of a way to move on and feel better). Suicide is one swift exit from all the problems (and perks) of life. It's so tempting when problems just come piling up outside my door. But, I know how it feels to permanently lose someone. I don't want to be a disgrace to the people who loves me. I'm not going to boast about how hundreds of people will miss me. Because, srsly, I think about the people who look forward to my success. I don't want to disappoint those who have faith in me. And those who've challenged me, those who said I've reached my limit, I want to prove them wrong. I don't want to give them the satisfaction. I still want to see what my friends (all types of friends) will do with their lives. I want to see how life is. I still want to learn about the greatest ways of living my life. I want to be inspired. I have to endure every fall, every push and shove, every failure, for simple things in life. When I get slapped in the face, and I get back to my right mind, I usually just wear my best smile and put on my comfiest shoes. You won't get me down. I may fail, but, I will drive this life in a way that these things won't matter in my next destination. Maybe I'm failing in life because I'm not inspired enough, or my priorities aren't set straight. Whether it's this or that, I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Failure happens to everybody, but, happiness is a choice. I may fail, but I'll keep on smiling and thinking positive (as much as I can). If I can't find my inspiration, I think I should at least help others be inspired. If I can't set my own life straight, I think I should at least tell others not to be like me. But, guys, if I do kill myself, I'm sorry. I'm not the one to talk, but, I hope you people keep yourselves alive and prove me that everything can be better.
[june 03] Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, random, suicidal
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Weekend, I went home for the UPCAT review. What would I call myself? Tutor? Teacher? Lecturer?
Anyway, I know how messed up I can be with this kind of responsibilities so I actually told them my weak points.
I am a normal student. I am lazy most of the time. Uma-absent ako, at madalas ding late. Ang maipagmamayabang ko lang, magaling akong mag-review dahil magaling akong mag-notes. Madalas hindi ako natutulog. Noong kapanahunan ko, natutulog lang ako sa review center.
Tas banat ko, "sana 'wag n'yo 'kong tularan." They were behaved most of the time. They're quite fun. At magagaling sila, matatalino sila. I believe that they can make it to UP if they really put effort in it.
Well, ask for respect and it shall be given to you.
On the other hand...
I mentioned before na I'm always wearing my earphones, right? Sometimes, I wear them in class, too.
May mga times na, after break, hindi ko na tinatanggal 'yung left bud. I just put it on mute para hindi hassle. May mga times talaga na ganito. Hindi naman ako pinapagalitan or what. At, sa UP, may freedom kang gawin ang gusto mong gawin para comfortable ka sa classroom, basta hindi maka-abala sa iba. I guess nasanay ako masyado sa ibang prof ko na walang pakealam kung tulog ka, kumakain ka, nag-aaral for other classes, or nakikinig ka. Basta pumasok ka para wala kang rason na bumagsak sa exam.
So, kanina, after break, iniwan ko lang ulit 'yung left bud, kasi Tonight by Big Bang 'yung nagpplay. Tas nagssulat akong ganyan, nakayuko. Sinusulat ko 'yung sinasabi ni prof nang bigla s'yang tumahimik. Nung inangat ko 'yung ulo ko to look, nakatingin na sya sakin ng mataray. Nagtinginan na rin malamang 'yung mga kaklase ko in my direction. Hindi naman ako kumakanta, I'm sure. And, hindi naman siguro biglang na-realize ng prof ko na sikat ako.
"Can you please take your earphones off?"
Hinablot ko agad, tas cool lang. Ayokong mag-mukhang takot or worried or nervous. Psh. UP 'to, may freedom ako to do what I want.
"Nakaka... I feel unrespected."
Ay, grabe, sorry po. :| Sa itsura niyo po kasing kita boobs, kagalang-galang talaga kayo. *rolls eyes* Magdamit ka muna ng maayos, tsaka na natin pag-usapan ang respect na 'yan. And, I didn't mean harm. I was paying attention naman. HELLO? Nagn-notes pa nga ako by ear, eh! Tas, bat ba ngayon n'ya lang binanggit, eh, madalas naman akong ganun. Hindi pa s'ya nasanay? Napuno na s'ya? Psh.
Ayaw na ayaw kong mapunta sa bad side ng mga Math profs. I can still remember Prof Rizzie and his talks about life and math and shit. Iisipin na naman nila na mayabang ako. :|
Poker face, poker face. Labels: %taglish, `death, `life, `school
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I'm not a big fan of AJ Perez. I know him by face and name. I follow his twitter. I know he's a Star Magic Talent. But when he died in an instant awhile ago, I really feel bad about everything. He's got his whole life ahead of him. He's definitely on his way to stardom. He wasn't even able to get to college. :( I just can't stop thinking of things he might have still wanted to do. Of the people he might have still wanted to meet. Of the dreams he might have still wanted to be real. I can't imagine how his family and friends feel. They've been with him for too little time. What about the promises he said he'll keep? What about the plans he made? What now? Where are they now? We can never really say when our time is coming.
RN, I don't know how serious it is, but ML is "kind of" missing. Maybe he's just running away (as in cutting all means of communication) from us, his friends, plus his girlfriend; or he's running away from home. Last time Irah saw him was Friday night. And he didn't go to Meryll's debut even though he was one of the 18 roses. We're all worrying about him now. We can't contact him, and we don't know any of his family's contacts. We srsly don't know where he is. We'll find out tomorrow. I hope and pray he goes to class.
It's just that, when these kinds of things happen, I want to actually hold each person I want to keep in my life. :| I don't want anyone running away from me for some odd reasons. And I certainly don't want anyone leaving me forever. Before these things happen, I'm going to warn you now not to leave me or I'll go nuts. And I just want to say, I love you, guys. Even if you hate me, or you're just stalking me, or you wandered here randomly: Please, keep yourselves safe and healthy, and never runaway from home.
-To my Mom and my Dad, I will never think of running away from home, from school, from responsibilities, and from challenges. I will be a better person. I love you! -To my sibs~ I love you all~ We don't fight that much anymore, and I'm happy about that. Let's be better friends every single day. I love you~! -To my friends, to those I consider as friends, and to those pure hearts that want to be friends with me: I am not an easy case to handle, and I want to say sorry for all the shit and drama I cause. I will be a better person. Please look after yourselves more, and be safe at all times. Don't go around unfamiliar places. -And, Marcgell, you're not allowed to die. Not now, and not soon. Please, please, be safe. And be a responsible adult... since I'm legal I can tell you that. But seriously, don't go drinking outside at the middle of the night. Don't do drugs. Don't smoke. Don't... you know... Don't do things that are prolly rumored great but are actually bad for you. :O Okay? Be safe. And don't cheat on me or I'll kill you. I love you!
I hope ML is okay. I hope he's just being a diva, trying to act cool and all. Well, when one person starts to worry (esp. when that person is Irah), everybody starts worrying. So, I soo hope he's okay. Let's all pray he's okay.
And let's pray for AJ Perez, for his family and friends who've lost a son, a brother, a friend... He will be missed. Be in peace in God's hands now, AJ. Labels: #cw, #update, %english, `death, `life
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I HATE IT WHEN MY VERY LITTLE PRIVACY IS INVADED.
[BULK POST] [EDITED, dahil ang harsh ng unang post x3] 1. Kung anong shina-share ko sa maramirami kong accounts, 'yun lang talaga ang pwede kong i-share. 'Wag pakealamera ng buhay.
2. Opo, open minded ako. Pero ayoko sa mga manyak na comments. Please lang. Si Marcgell lang ang napapatawad ko.
3. 'Wag nyo kong subukan. Kung sinabi kong tama na, tama na.
4. Hindi ako nagpapaligaw. Bawal manligaw.
5. Ayokong naiistorbo ako ng wala lang. Ang may karapatan lang na guluhin ako ay si Lei at Dad ko. Sina Arden, Marcgell, at Pajas lang ang napapatawad kong nanggugulo.
6. Allergic ako sa clingy na tao.
7. Makapal ang mukha ko.
8. Malutong ako mag-mura.
9. Masama akong tao.
SHIT. This post just ruined my blog. And I am such a bitch. Labels: #list, %taglish, `death, `life, `me, suicidal
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So, I was planning to make a post about my Finals week, complete with Date, Events, Comments... And then I forgot almost everything. So I'll do a very messy version of what I planned to do.
MATH 17 Exam - okay, I guess.
GEOL 11 Exam - I expected much, so, I was kind of more prepared than usual. But I can't be too sure, since my class haven't had a Geol for a month before the exam.
No exam in Art Stud 2. Which sucks 'cause I failed the first LE, now she gave me so much shit for a grade.
GEOL 11.1 Exam - ohmygod. my mind went seriously blank. :| whatever.
GEOG 1 Exam - I hate 6PM exams. And I hate that the exam only took 45 minutes to finish, we could've done it earlier. I might have been able to think in my Geol Lab Exam.
During the Exams week, two GA girls celebrated their birthdays: Josefene and Almira. I wasn't able to join the pig-out during Jo's, but I love Almira's birthday. She gave us sooo much food. And the whole gang just loves stories on their pizzas!
I was able to watch Eevee (with Kiss Jane and Letter Day Story) in one of their Mossimo promo-mall-tour before coming back home for the sembreak. Trinoma with Irah. I love how Irah is so positive with everything Eevee. And I just have to quote this: I know three things about Enzo. One, his skin is very white. Two, he's in Eevee. And three, he's a vampire. -Irah Reamon Mango marshmallows attracted the crowd. Why oh why just now? D: It's like one thing me and Kuya Craig share, aside from our stories. xD
ENG 12 Exam - I hate that I thought this subject will be my only chance of a high grade. 80 points on one essay, topic: DEATH. :| Kill me now, will yeah?
Last night in Kalay and I just have to sleep on the floor. Outside my door. No, I wasn't locked out! I was with Essa and Jullie. At first we were just scared of the rain and the ghost stories. But after sometime, we were watching Ryan Higa videos, eating, listening to music, and talking girly stuff... and we just slept there. xD
Labels: #life, #update, %english, `death, `fandom, `me, `school
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I just want to give myself some credit, for having my life going. :D
[updated] 'Cause for some reasons, everything's going crazy. Right when we're about to graduate. Tsktsk...
-------- Months ago, I was half-heartedly aiming at things that looked good. If I can't have that one thing I really wanted, I should atleast have everything else. I used to think that way. And I'm glad it's over.
If you can't see I'm happy, you probably haven't seen happy yet. Haha. Everything just seems so good. You know that feeling, like you're in-control, like life's on your team? Well, that's how I feel right now.
Days ago, there's this person who probably got jealous, and I don't blame him. LOL. He tried making me think of bad stuff, the "real" side. I'd give details but, I just can't think of a good enough reason why I should. Anyway, when it didn't work, he raked history and brought up a hideous past. I was troubled and desperate. I know I can't explain myself, but we both know it didn't go that way.
Dude, you're low. I'm sorry you think I won, but I never wanted to play games with you. I'm sorry that you're not trying to be happy! Don't bring others down just so you'd look good. Dust yourself, and I'll give you a push but you need to keep walking. Be a man.
-------- The world won't stop to wait for you. This is something I learned during my stay in PISAY.
You failed, you tripped. So? We won't fail and trip just so you'll feel less stupid. We will hold your hand, so you wont fail and trip on your own. But don't be so dependent. We have lives, too. Sometime, and for us it's just 21 days away, we will have to start a new chapter of our lives, and maybe, live separately. You'll meet new people, and maybe, get along with them. If there are things you want, keep in mind that there are things they might want as well. Also, we're all different. However smooth your friendship will be, you might not see things the way they see it. Be considerate, don't be such a brat. How old are you again?
Before claiming that WE, who've fucking helped you in everything and you lovingly tagged along in your miseries, are cheating you in some way, look at yourself. Did you always do what you said you'd do for us? Did you never suggested you go ahead? It might look like we're singling you out, but, why should we? We're equals! And you thinking that we singled you out only shows you don't see us as your equals. You want you and yourself on top priority, always.
When you say sorry, please, admit that you're wrong. What the hell is the point of saying "sorry" if you don't mean it? Sorry, let's be friends again. And then what? Don't insult me.
Don't expect me to be all nice to you after what happened. Guess what, you just made me realize how annoying you've been for the last, uhm, four months. Actually, you've been annoying the first time we met. Our first conversation, you apologized. I never knew you talked bad about me, but I just brushed it off. Can you see where it brought us? Back where we started.
-------- Be happy! :D Labels: #cw, %english, `death
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Dahil long weekend, marami akong pwedeng gawin! :D
Una sa lahat, mag-blog. BULK POST. At aayusin ko na po ang aking blog. Aayusin lang siguro 'yung ibang titles at tags. Tinatamad akong basahin lahat, so, kung may mali, bahala na. :P
Tapos, marami akong dapat basahin! May apat na novels akong gustong basahin, at isang pilit ko dapat basahin (Tondo Man ay May Langit Din).
Marami pang requirements: Physics Project at Take-Home Long Test, CompSci Case Study. Kailangan ko pang mag-make-up ng reporting at long test sa SocSci, half-a-quiz sa Filipino, dalawang quiz sa Bio, isang quiz sa Calculus. Wait, mag-aaral ba 'ko? 8D
Every weekend na rin 'ata akong naglilinis ng kwarto. Kasi naman, during weekdays nagkakalat lang ako. :P
[ kahapon.Fellowship Night. ] ;; Ang gwapo ni Vil 'pag galit. O.o ;; Nagb-blend in ako sa mga Freshies, sobra! Lalo na kapag kasama ko si Yanna at Abby. ;; 2NE1 girl na rin si Ma'am Annellene ngayon, bwahahaha! Hindi na niya ako maaasar! ;; Keep your valuables, hold them tight. :D ;; Uber ganda na ng prepared Modern Dance at Band Presentation, kaso, ayun, biglang nagka-blackout. :/
Hmmn... I better start working, ja ne~! :) Labels: #list, #update, %tagalog, `death, `school
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Ayokong mag-Prom. Hindi ko ma-explain kung bakit, hindi ko alam kung paano ko ie-explain. Basta, ayoko.
Bastusan na ba 'to?
Game. Labels: #cw, %tagalog, `death, `school, suicidal
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I've been trying to be happy, but don't fuckin' push it.
I know I can't help my friends if I myself fail at life. I smile and laugh and have the biggest confidence, that's how everybody sees me, right? I've been listening about your fucking pathetic lives, all the fucking time. Now stop and think, d'you really think I was always okay when you weren't? BUT OF COURSE, we all have our share of shit. It's just that I love mine so much I don't share it... And you don't really fucking care ask where it's from when you can smell it darn perfectly. Disturbing comparison, but logical.
I shouldn't be keeping my problems to myself, I know. And friends are there to share the burden with you. But, I can't really give my friends something to think of when I know they already have so much in their mind.
I'm all smiles and chit-chats but my life is not "the best". My life isn't chocolate & flowers, twinkling stars, nor butterflies. Like I said, I have my share of shit. Shit, it gets uglier when kept in a hidden place. I'm okay with jokes. Just don't joke all the time, 'cause if you do... my life will be one big joke, for your entertainment.
Shit to you, too, assholes.
[ moral? ethics? what? ] Labels: #cw, %english, `death
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Plurk updates[12:22] says hi world! :D (using ia's lappytoppy)
[12:33] says (scenic)(lonely)(cry)
[12:41] says Good Luck sa mga nag-MTAP! Go ANDREW! Go AISSA! Go JEM! :D :D :D
[21:10] says efyu, CAT! (angry)
[21:10] says **update**
[21:12] is dying, thank you very much. =_=
[21:12] shares happiness! :D masaya pa rin pala araw na 'to.
[21:10] asks nuggets mo ba? :)) hihihi
[21:44] will work on FIL until morning! (rock)(gym)
[22:50] is inaantok na, ohno. :/ Fil namin...
[23:16] *may the pen never dry*
[23:19] says sorry, Fil. :( gising ako maaga, swear!
[23:20] says good night! :D love you babies~
[23:30] says btw, CONGRATS TEAM IRC! :D Galing sa MTAP! (worship)
Twitter Updates: ♥ Thanks Ivana for the net! xD ♠ good luck sa mga nag-MTAP!!! Go ANDREW!!! Go AISSA!! Go JEMAR!! :D ♥ was punished at CAT. x__x dying... why weren't you there to carry me... =_=;; ♣ @ naoitweets that' a good movie! ^^ enjoy it! and, yeah, we all love Fridays~! ♠ working on shitty Fil Project (reminds me of Marcgell, lol) ♥ i'm sleepy na, ohno, Fil namin =_=;; ♦ can't take it anymore. =_=;; sorry, Filipino Project.
Labels: #list, #update, %taglish, `death, `ehem, `life, `school
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Number of Requirements Done: ZERO.
No plans of studying this vacation... Well, that's why it's called a "VACATION", right? Haha...
Been watching You're Beautiful. :D Been reading Midnight by Dean R. Koontz. Been going here and there for some free food. Haha.
So far, life is good... I guess. xD
...lalala...
Don't try to mess with me. Wait, let me rephrase.
Don't mess with me IN MY OWN BLOG. What I hate most is people making fun of me, using other people as cover. Sissies, cowards, bastards...
...lalala...
HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :D
[edit 10:15 PM] Ang weird talaga ng feeling na 'to. I know that person is hiding something from me, and I want to know why. Labels: #update, `death, `me, suicidal
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RIP, Freedom of Speech & Freedom of Expression
[A/N] Ipinupusta ko ang limang taong kasama ko ang url na http://suicidalfoot.blogspot.com. I moved my blog in a not so very secret place, and here goes nothing...
I have read most of the Cybercrime Prevention Act of 2012, but not all of it. I may be wrong and I apologize in advance to whoever might get offended with this post.
We are in the digital age. We use our computers and phones to communicate, share, and discover. Facebook and Twitter have both became powerful tools of information dissemination. Aside from products and services, and events, and people, politic propaganda has also reached the said social networking site. Supporters of politicians bash each other. Parody accounts humiliated and branded a lot of corrupt and obviously incompetent politicians. But this "law" is beyond Facebook status and Twitter updates.
I am sure that at one point in our lives we have illegally downloaded copyrighted music, photos, videos; and some probably illegally shared their illegally acquired media. It is not that we want to harm industries that are concerned. When I was first introduced to the internet, I did not know that I was doing something illegal. I might have downloaded gigabytes of illegal media before I found out it was wrong. But, I could not do much about it. I did not know how to buy songs online, or why the need to pay for hard copies of magazines that had scans. And, how about our anime? Should I fly to Japan and buy them, and there won't be any subtitles, too?! And besides, it's already uploaded, I might as well take advantage of it.
Still, the Government is right: sharing copyrighted files is illegal.
I have been ranting for 5 years know, about school, about life, sometimes about the Government, too. I express my opinions and my raged thoughts. I believe it is my freedom to say what I want in my blog. It is, afterall, my blog. I am not asking my readers to agree with me. I am just starting an argument in their minds, to start them thinking on their own. I fuel their interest.
I would understand censoring Facebook and Twitter. This may be hard for me to say, but, I guess it makes sense. A lot of people will be influenced if someone said something in FB and Twitter. Worse part is, most of these people would not even know the whole story. Because it is a social networking site, you most like scroll through it, LIKE it, or RETWEET it, and then move on to the other topics shared. Because of the fast-paced online life in social networking sites, we either agree or disagree, most of the time without question.
But, a Cybercrime Prevention Law is not the answer to this. Whichever angle you look at it, this is an oppression of the Freedom of Speech and Freedom of Expression. Why not just tell people to be informed first before liking a page or a post, or before sharing a propaganda photo. (Okay, look who's talking, the girl who didn't even read the act in it's entirety).
How about cybersex? Seriously, guys. Do we still need to talk about this? If women and kids are being sold online, then, yes, that is obviously illegal. I'm sure there's a law for that already. But, what about two knowing, willing people (gender sensitive)? I think it is my choice to send a nude picture to my boyfriend if he asked for it. If I was offended we could talk about it like grown-ups. If I was harassed, why did I even have him as my boyfriend in the first place, right? Anyway, you say, what if they are strangers who just met online. One time they agreed to do webcam, then suddenly, the other party is jerkin' off. Well, I say, close that shit and delete that person from your network. You know, you have the power to block people from whatever accounts you are using. That's the magic of internet, baby.
I think it is time for us to grow up. This should not be such a big issue. It doesn't need a genius to figure out that this Cybercrime Prevention Law is just another excuse to use taxpayers' money.
#NoToCyberCrimeLawLabels: #manic, #rant, %english, `death, `internet, `problem, murderous, text
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I have so much in my mind RN.
Parang gusto ko ng isipin that life is not fair at all... At, oo, nagdadrama na naman ako. Wala na naman ako sa aking katinuhan. Kasi, malamang, hindi ako magbblog kung matino ako. :|
ARGH. I just hate hate hate those people right now. :((
When a tree falls down and no one's there to hear it, it still did make a sound. Law of conservation of energy. Sinabi ko na to dati, diba? Bat ba ang kukulit nyo? Kung nangyari, kahit hindi mo ipagsabi. Nangyari yun.
Wala na bang natirang may konsensya?
I don't know what to think anymore... I'm doubting every f-ing thing and everyone. Labels: #life, %taglish, `death
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Giving up and letting go are two different things.
You already failed an exam. The act of surrender is not giving up. It's letting go. You're going to be late for class. The act of surrender is giving up, not letting go.
If there is still a chance for change and you just drop everything, that's giving up. Cowardice, prolly. But if there's 0% chance, as in none, ze-o-ro chance, then you should just let it go. Just move on...
And so we should never give up on life, and just let go of the bad things... Labels: #cw, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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Summer Term nung unang mangyari sakin 'to. Tapos, kahapon ulit. Tapos ngayon na naman.
Hindi ako makasend ng message, can't make calls. Hindi rin makareceive ng texts/calls. WTH is happening? Nung unang time, 8-10 hours nawala yung services sakin. Naka-Super25 ako nun, kung 'yun man tawag sa one day unlitext & unlicall. Sayang 'yung unli ko. HINDI KO MAN LANG MATAWAGAN 'YUNG CUSTOMER SERVICE. >:| Walang kwenta. Nagpaload pa ulit ako nun, kasi baka nawalan ako ng load. Pero, 'yun nga, di ko rin naman mareceive 'yung load. Di man lang ako makapag-inquire ng balance. TANGINA TALAGA.
Kahapon, dalawang oras ulit. Nakaka-badtrip lang talaga. Paano naman 'yung unli ko.
Tapos, right now, it's happening for the third FUCKING time.
Sana mabasa ito ng GLOBE TELECOM. Kung magddown naman kayo ng certain number, sana may confirmation muna! At, paano naman kung may emergency? >:| Hindi nyo man lang pinalitan 'yung nasayang na time. Sorry po ha. Hindi lang kasi ako sanay sa trash-ish na services niyo since I've always been a Smart user. Babalik na nga lang ako sa Smart.>:| BADTRIP. Labels: #update, %taglish, `death, `life
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Make the most out of it.
People started re-connecting with me. Wondering how I've been, how I am. It's nice that they're here when I don't have much left.
People started apologizing. Which is super weird. Was it because of the Brotip? "Don't do bad things to people who have blogs"? I don't just mean one person, there were a few. I never knew they were making fun of me, :/ And I still don't know how to handle confessions of such acts. I can't hate these people, I pushed them away, they have the right to hate me.
But, I am waiting for one person to be real. Whoever that person is. I wish I could personally tell that person to go fjbisvkjbksjfkjnfdn in hell. :( Labels: #update, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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[EDIT] SHIT. T_____T I can't believe I almost... sorry.
There will be no scheduled posts. I'll post when I get the time. Labels: #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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I'm sorry about what I've said. I'm sorry about the things I've thought of. I'm sorry about the things I've done.
I'm sorry that there are words I never said. I'm sorry if I have a limited mind. I'm sorry for the things I didn't do.
Up to the end, I can't hurt you... Labels: #update, %english, `death, `me, suicidal
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I wonder if I'm being mean. Most of the time, I'm not thinking of what I'm saying... And right now, I'm speaking with a broken (better yet, shattered) heart. The things I know of, I mention. Things I don't know of, I think of worse.
I still just can't believe one of my supposedly best friends would do this to me. Labels: #life, #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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Sometimes, for some fucked up reasons, things cloud your mind and you become uncertain about a few things in life. After some time, it'll prolly turn out well. If not, it's best try to figure things out on your own. Don't make things worse. Kumbaga, kung nagkasakit ka, at hindi enough and tubig at pahinga, DUDE, UMINOM KA NA NG GAMOT.
But, what if you're unsure for so long? What if it's periodic? Why the fucking hell are you doubting?
OKAY, I'm not going to try and work this out in other ways, I'll just go straight to the point... Or, random points.
For you, what is Love? EEW. SCRATCH THAT.
There are times that you "feel" you love someone. That's to say, "you are in-love". When you say "you're in-love", it doesn't necessarily mean you are loving. Being in-love with someone is different from loving someone. Well, atleast that's what I've read. And from how I use the words "in-love", I think it's safe to say that you don't necessarily love the person you're in-love with. You might just admire them so much. You're a fan. You're a follower... You're something other than a lover.
And then there's this feeling of being in-love with the relationship. Maybe you don't love the person, you just love the idea of having him/her in your life as your special someone... or one of your special persons. *coughwhorecough*
Convenience. It's common among people I personally know. They are in a relationship with someone they've know for sometime, and both parties have agreed that they need each other. Love comes afterwards... most of the time. It's having a relationship with someone you can be with for a long time without getting tired... someone who knows you, and knows how to deal with you. They're what you need, and of course, you should be what they'd need.
IDK what I'm saying, rly. I'm just randomly spilling what's in my mind... at 1:54 AM. And my class is 7AM-4PM.
Shit happens.
KBye.
Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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Everybody faces a wide range of failures everyday. But not everybody knows how to deal with failure. Not everybody is patient enough, or confident enough, that there is a better tomorrow. Giving up is always my option. When I'm facing a problem, I usually spend 50% of the time convincing myself not to give up, 25% trying to think of something else (ignoring the problem), 15% worrying (crying, and feeling terrible), and just 10% of actual problem solving (thinking of a way to move on and feel better). Suicide is one swift exit from all the problems (and perks) of life. It's so tempting when problems just come piling up outside my door. But, I know how it feels to permanently lose someone. I don't want to be a disgrace to the people who loves me. I'm not going to boast about how hundreds of people will miss me. Because, srsly, I think about the people who look forward to my success. I don't want to disappoint those who have faith in me. And those who've challenged me, those who said I've reached my limit, I want to prove them wrong. I don't want to give them the satisfaction. I still want to see what my friends (all types of friends) will do with their lives. I want to see how life is. I still want to learn about the greatest ways of living my life. I want to be inspired. I have to endure every fall, every push and shove, every failure, for simple things in life. When I get slapped in the face, and I get back to my right mind, I usually just wear my best smile and put on my comfiest shoes. You won't get me down. I may fail, but, I will drive this life in a way that these things won't matter in my next destination. Maybe I'm failing in life because I'm not inspired enough, or my priorities aren't set straight. Whether it's this or that, I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Failure happens to everybody, but, happiness is a choice. I may fail, but I'll keep on smiling and thinking positive (as much as I can). If I can't find my inspiration, I think I should at least help others be inspired. If I can't set my own life straight, I think I should at least tell others not to be like me. But, guys, if I do kill myself, I'm sorry. I'm not the one to talk, but, I hope you people keep yourselves alive and prove me that everything can be better.
[june 03] Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, random, suicidal
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Weekend, I went home for the UPCAT review. What would I call myself? Tutor? Teacher? Lecturer?
Anyway, I know how messed up I can be with this kind of responsibilities so I actually told them my weak points.
I am a normal student. I am lazy most of the time. Uma-absent ako, at madalas ding late. Ang maipagmamayabang ko lang, magaling akong mag-review dahil magaling akong mag-notes. Madalas hindi ako natutulog. Noong kapanahunan ko, natutulog lang ako sa review center.
Tas banat ko, "sana 'wag n'yo 'kong tularan." They were behaved most of the time. They're quite fun. At magagaling sila, matatalino sila. I believe that they can make it to UP if they really put effort in it.
Well, ask for respect and it shall be given to you.
On the other hand...
I mentioned before na I'm always wearing my earphones, right? Sometimes, I wear them in class, too.
May mga times na, after break, hindi ko na tinatanggal 'yung left bud. I just put it on mute para hindi hassle. May mga times talaga na ganito. Hindi naman ako pinapagalitan or what. At, sa UP, may freedom kang gawin ang gusto mong gawin para comfortable ka sa classroom, basta hindi maka-abala sa iba. I guess nasanay ako masyado sa ibang prof ko na walang pakealam kung tulog ka, kumakain ka, nag-aaral for other classes, or nakikinig ka. Basta pumasok ka para wala kang rason na bumagsak sa exam.
So, kanina, after break, iniwan ko lang ulit 'yung left bud, kasi Tonight by Big Bang 'yung nagpplay. Tas nagssulat akong ganyan, nakayuko. Sinusulat ko 'yung sinasabi ni prof nang bigla s'yang tumahimik. Nung inangat ko 'yung ulo ko to look, nakatingin na sya sakin ng mataray. Nagtinginan na rin malamang 'yung mga kaklase ko in my direction. Hindi naman ako kumakanta, I'm sure. And, hindi naman siguro biglang na-realize ng prof ko na sikat ako.
"Can you please take your earphones off?"
Hinablot ko agad, tas cool lang. Ayokong mag-mukhang takot or worried or nervous. Psh. UP 'to, may freedom ako to do what I want.
"Nakaka... I feel unrespected."
Ay, grabe, sorry po. :| Sa itsura niyo po kasing kita boobs, kagalang-galang talaga kayo. *rolls eyes* Magdamit ka muna ng maayos, tsaka na natin pag-usapan ang respect na 'yan. And, I didn't mean harm. I was paying attention naman. HELLO? Nagn-notes pa nga ako by ear, eh! Tas, bat ba ngayon n'ya lang binanggit, eh, madalas naman akong ganun. Hindi pa s'ya nasanay? Napuno na s'ya? Psh.
Ayaw na ayaw kong mapunta sa bad side ng mga Math profs. I can still remember Prof Rizzie and his talks about life and math and shit. Iisipin na naman nila na mayabang ako. :|
Poker face, poker face. Labels: %taglish, `death, `life, `school
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I'm not a big fan of AJ Perez. I know him by face and name. I follow his twitter. I know he's a Star Magic Talent. But when he died in an instant awhile ago, I really feel bad about everything. He's got his whole life ahead of him. He's definitely on his way to stardom. He wasn't even able to get to college. :( I just can't stop thinking of things he might have still wanted to do. Of the people he might have still wanted to meet. Of the dreams he might have still wanted to be real. I can't imagine how his family and friends feel. They've been with him for too little time. What about the promises he said he'll keep? What about the plans he made? What now? Where are they now? We can never really say when our time is coming.
RN, I don't know how serious it is, but ML is "kind of" missing. Maybe he's just running away (as in cutting all means of communication) from us, his friends, plus his girlfriend; or he's running away from home. Last time Irah saw him was Friday night. And he didn't go to Meryll's debut even though he was one of the 18 roses. We're all worrying about him now. We can't contact him, and we don't know any of his family's contacts. We srsly don't know where he is. We'll find out tomorrow. I hope and pray he goes to class.
It's just that, when these kinds of things happen, I want to actually hold each person I want to keep in my life. :| I don't want anyone running away from me for some odd reasons. And I certainly don't want anyone leaving me forever. Before these things happen, I'm going to warn you now not to leave me or I'll go nuts. And I just want to say, I love you, guys. Even if you hate me, or you're just stalking me, or you wandered here randomly: Please, keep yourselves safe and healthy, and never runaway from home.
-To my Mom and my Dad, I will never think of running away from home, from school, from responsibilities, and from challenges. I will be a better person. I love you! -To my sibs~ I love you all~ We don't fight that much anymore, and I'm happy about that. Let's be better friends every single day. I love you~! -To my friends, to those I consider as friends, and to those pure hearts that want to be friends with me: I am not an easy case to handle, and I want to say sorry for all the shit and drama I cause. I will be a better person. Please look after yourselves more, and be safe at all times. Don't go around unfamiliar places. -And, Marcgell, you're not allowed to die. Not now, and not soon. Please, please, be safe. And be a responsible adult... since I'm legal I can tell you that. But seriously, don't go drinking outside at the middle of the night. Don't do drugs. Don't smoke. Don't... you know... Don't do things that are prolly rumored great but are actually bad for you. :O Okay? Be safe. And don't cheat on me or I'll kill you. I love you!
I hope ML is okay. I hope he's just being a diva, trying to act cool and all. Well, when one person starts to worry (esp. when that person is Irah), everybody starts worrying. So, I soo hope he's okay. Let's all pray he's okay.
And let's pray for AJ Perez, for his family and friends who've lost a son, a brother, a friend... He will be missed. Be in peace in God's hands now, AJ. Labels: #cw, #update, %english, `death, `life
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I HATE IT WHEN MY VERY LITTLE PRIVACY IS INVADED.
[BULK POST] [EDITED, dahil ang harsh ng unang post x3] 1. Kung anong shina-share ko sa maramirami kong accounts, 'yun lang talaga ang pwede kong i-share. 'Wag pakealamera ng buhay.
2. Opo, open minded ako. Pero ayoko sa mga manyak na comments. Please lang. Si Marcgell lang ang napapatawad ko.
3. 'Wag nyo kong subukan. Kung sinabi kong tama na, tama na.
4. Hindi ako nagpapaligaw. Bawal manligaw.
5. Ayokong naiistorbo ako ng wala lang. Ang may karapatan lang na guluhin ako ay si Lei at Dad ko. Sina Arden, Marcgell, at Pajas lang ang napapatawad kong nanggugulo.
6. Allergic ako sa clingy na tao.
7. Makapal ang mukha ko.
8. Malutong ako mag-mura.
9. Masama akong tao.
SHIT. This post just ruined my blog. And I am such a bitch. Labels: #list, %taglish, `death, `life, `me, suicidal
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So, I was planning to make a post about my Finals week, complete with Date, Events, Comments... And then I forgot almost everything. So I'll do a very messy version of what I planned to do.
MATH 17 Exam - okay, I guess.
GEOL 11 Exam - I expected much, so, I was kind of more prepared than usual. But I can't be too sure, since my class haven't had a Geol for a month before the exam.
No exam in Art Stud 2. Which sucks 'cause I failed the first LE, now she gave me so much shit for a grade.
GEOL 11.1 Exam - ohmygod. my mind went seriously blank. :| whatever.
GEOG 1 Exam - I hate 6PM exams. And I hate that the exam only took 45 minutes to finish, we could've done it earlier. I might have been able to think in my Geol Lab Exam.
During the Exams week, two GA girls celebrated their birthdays: Josefene and Almira. I wasn't able to join the pig-out during Jo's, but I love Almira's birthday. She gave us sooo much food. And the whole gang just loves stories on their pizzas!
I was able to watch Eevee (with Kiss Jane and Letter Day Story) in one of their Mossimo promo-mall-tour before coming back home for the sembreak. Trinoma with Irah. I love how Irah is so positive with everything Eevee. And I just have to quote this: I know three things about Enzo. One, his skin is very white. Two, he's in Eevee. And three, he's a vampire. -Irah Reamon Mango marshmallows attracted the crowd. Why oh why just now? D: It's like one thing me and Kuya Craig share, aside from our stories. xD
ENG 12 Exam - I hate that I thought this subject will be my only chance of a high grade. 80 points on one essay, topic: DEATH. :| Kill me now, will yeah?
Last night in Kalay and I just have to sleep on the floor. Outside my door. No, I wasn't locked out! I was with Essa and Jullie. At first we were just scared of the rain and the ghost stories. But after sometime, we were watching Ryan Higa videos, eating, listening to music, and talking girly stuff... and we just slept there. xD
Labels: #life, #update, %english, `death, `fandom, `me, `school
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I just want to give myself some credit, for having my life going. :D
[updated] 'Cause for some reasons, everything's going crazy. Right when we're about to graduate. Tsktsk...
-------- Months ago, I was half-heartedly aiming at things that looked good. If I can't have that one thing I really wanted, I should atleast have everything else. I used to think that way. And I'm glad it's over.
If you can't see I'm happy, you probably haven't seen happy yet. Haha. Everything just seems so good. You know that feeling, like you're in-control, like life's on your team? Well, that's how I feel right now.
Days ago, there's this person who probably got jealous, and I don't blame him. LOL. He tried making me think of bad stuff, the "real" side. I'd give details but, I just can't think of a good enough reason why I should. Anyway, when it didn't work, he raked history and brought up a hideous past. I was troubled and desperate. I know I can't explain myself, but we both know it didn't go that way.
Dude, you're low. I'm sorry you think I won, but I never wanted to play games with you. I'm sorry that you're not trying to be happy! Don't bring others down just so you'd look good. Dust yourself, and I'll give you a push but you need to keep walking. Be a man.
-------- The world won't stop to wait for you. This is something I learned during my stay in PISAY.
You failed, you tripped. So? We won't fail and trip just so you'll feel less stupid. We will hold your hand, so you wont fail and trip on your own. But don't be so dependent. We have lives, too. Sometime, and for us it's just 21 days away, we will have to start a new chapter of our lives, and maybe, live separately. You'll meet new people, and maybe, get along with them. If there are things you want, keep in mind that there are things they might want as well. Also, we're all different. However smooth your friendship will be, you might not see things the way they see it. Be considerate, don't be such a brat. How old are you again?
Before claiming that WE, who've fucking helped you in everything and you lovingly tagged along in your miseries, are cheating you in some way, look at yourself. Did you always do what you said you'd do for us? Did you never suggested you go ahead? It might look like we're singling you out, but, why should we? We're equals! And you thinking that we singled you out only shows you don't see us as your equals. You want you and yourself on top priority, always.
When you say sorry, please, admit that you're wrong. What the hell is the point of saying "sorry" if you don't mean it? Sorry, let's be friends again. And then what? Don't insult me.
Don't expect me to be all nice to you after what happened. Guess what, you just made me realize how annoying you've been for the last, uhm, four months. Actually, you've been annoying the first time we met. Our first conversation, you apologized. I never knew you talked bad about me, but I just brushed it off. Can you see where it brought us? Back where we started.
-------- Be happy! :D Labels: #cw, %english, `death
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Dahil long weekend, marami akong pwedeng gawin! :D
Una sa lahat, mag-blog. BULK POST. At aayusin ko na po ang aking blog. Aayusin lang siguro 'yung ibang titles at tags. Tinatamad akong basahin lahat, so, kung may mali, bahala na. :P
Tapos, marami akong dapat basahin! May apat na novels akong gustong basahin, at isang pilit ko dapat basahin (Tondo Man ay May Langit Din).
Marami pang requirements: Physics Project at Take-Home Long Test, CompSci Case Study. Kailangan ko pang mag-make-up ng reporting at long test sa SocSci, half-a-quiz sa Filipino, dalawang quiz sa Bio, isang quiz sa Calculus. Wait, mag-aaral ba 'ko? 8D
Every weekend na rin 'ata akong naglilinis ng kwarto. Kasi naman, during weekdays nagkakalat lang ako. :P
[ kahapon.Fellowship Night. ] ;; Ang gwapo ni Vil 'pag galit. O.o ;; Nagb-blend in ako sa mga Freshies, sobra! Lalo na kapag kasama ko si Yanna at Abby. ;; 2NE1 girl na rin si Ma'am Annellene ngayon, bwahahaha! Hindi na niya ako maaasar! ;; Keep your valuables, hold them tight. :D ;; Uber ganda na ng prepared Modern Dance at Band Presentation, kaso, ayun, biglang nagka-blackout. :/
Hmmn... I better start working, ja ne~! :) Labels: #list, #update, %tagalog, `death, `school
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Ayokong mag-Prom. Hindi ko ma-explain kung bakit, hindi ko alam kung paano ko ie-explain. Basta, ayoko.
Bastusan na ba 'to?
Game. Labels: #cw, %tagalog, `death, `school, suicidal
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I've been trying to be happy, but don't fuckin' push it.
I know I can't help my friends if I myself fail at life. I smile and laugh and have the biggest confidence, that's how everybody sees me, right? I've been listening about your fucking pathetic lives, all the fucking time. Now stop and think, d'you really think I was always okay when you weren't? BUT OF COURSE, we all have our share of shit. It's just that I love mine so much I don't share it... And you don't really fucking care ask where it's from when you can smell it darn perfectly. Disturbing comparison, but logical.
I shouldn't be keeping my problems to myself, I know. And friends are there to share the burden with you. But, I can't really give my friends something to think of when I know they already have so much in their mind.
I'm all smiles and chit-chats but my life is not "the best". My life isn't chocolate & flowers, twinkling stars, nor butterflies. Like I said, I have my share of shit. Shit, it gets uglier when kept in a hidden place. I'm okay with jokes. Just don't joke all the time, 'cause if you do... my life will be one big joke, for your entertainment.
Shit to you, too, assholes.
[ moral? ethics? what? ] Labels: #cw, %english, `death
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Plurk updates[12:22] says hi world! :D (using ia's lappytoppy)
[12:33] says (scenic)(lonely)(cry)
[12:41] says Good Luck sa mga nag-MTAP! Go ANDREW! Go AISSA! Go JEM! :D :D :D
[21:10] says efyu, CAT! (angry)
[21:10] says **update**
[21:12] is dying, thank you very much. =_=
[21:12] shares happiness! :D masaya pa rin pala araw na 'to.
[21:10] asks nuggets mo ba? :)) hihihi
[21:44] will work on FIL until morning! (rock)(gym)
[22:50] is inaantok na, ohno. :/ Fil namin...
[23:16] *may the pen never dry*
[23:19] says sorry, Fil. :( gising ako maaga, swear!
[23:20] says good night! :D love you babies~
[23:30] says btw, CONGRATS TEAM IRC! :D Galing sa MTAP! (worship)
Twitter Updates: ♥ Thanks Ivana for the net! xD ♠ good luck sa mga nag-MTAP!!! Go ANDREW!!! Go AISSA!! Go JEMAR!! :D ♥ was punished at CAT. x__x dying... why weren't you there to carry me... =_=;; ♣ @ naoitweets that' a good movie! ^^ enjoy it! and, yeah, we all love Fridays~! ♠ working on shitty Fil Project (reminds me of Marcgell, lol) ♥ i'm sleepy na, ohno, Fil namin =_=;; ♦ can't take it anymore. =_=;; sorry, Filipino Project.
Labels: #list, #update, %taglish, `death, `ehem, `life, `school
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Number of Requirements Done: ZERO.
No plans of studying this vacation... Well, that's why it's called a "VACATION", right? Haha...
Been watching You're Beautiful. :D Been reading Midnight by Dean R. Koontz. Been going here and there for some free food. Haha.
So far, life is good... I guess. xD
...lalala...
Don't try to mess with me. Wait, let me rephrase.
Don't mess with me IN MY OWN BLOG. What I hate most is people making fun of me, using other people as cover. Sissies, cowards, bastards...
...lalala...
HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :D
[edit 10:15 PM] Ang weird talaga ng feeling na 'to. I know that person is hiding something from me, and I want to know why. Labels: #update, `death, `me, suicidal
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tagboard soon
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The cat loves to purr, and meow, and hiss. She's a very noisy cat, obviously. Kitty loves to sleep, next to her love for food. Food she loves include pizza, pasta, crepes, pancakes, cakes, milktea,burgers, etc. She loves being worshipped. Bow down to me!!! She loves cuddles, unless we're not close, eew don't touch me freak.
This kitty is in-love with a non-reacting bunny. He's always acting cool, and fails at it. He is crazy and loves computers.
This is still pretty much under construction; hence the emptiness.
Adopted Trees.
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