to my hs schoolmate, friend, kapakapatid, Geo
Di ba naging close tayo? Naaalala ko pa kung pano tayo naging close. Kasi, magkapitbahay tayo ng classrooms. Haha. Tapos sinasabihan mo ko na cute, na crush mo ko. Niloloko naman kita na pwede ka na rin, cute na rin, haha. Pero, sabi mo may crush ka talaga... Tinatanong mo pa ko kung paano ba manligaw. Tinatawanan pa kita nun. Sabi ko, bata ka pa, wag ka magmadali. Pero, go ka pa rin. Kasi nga crush na crush mo sya, sabi mo. Eh di, sige, "kung gusto mo talaga."
Naalala ko pa yung tinext mo ko, Sunday 'yun. Sabi mo nag-date kayo. Tas nahalikan mo sya. Tinawanan na naman kita. Sabi ko masyado kang nagmamadali. Pero, sige lang, kasi masaya ka naman. Kaya masaya na rin ako.
Tapos naging kayo na. At alam kong masaya ka talaga.
Paano nga ba tayo natigil magkatext?
Ah. Nung nagkaproblema ako sa sarili kong relationship ata. Blinock out ko rin lahat. At nung okay na ko, di na kita nabalikan.
Pero, hindi naman tayo nag-away. Di rin naman tayo nagkalayuan ng loob. Okay pa rin tayo. Cool pa rin tayo sa isa't isa kahit di na tayo close tulad ng dati.
Naalala ko rin pala, na napagusapan natin noon kung paano kahirap ang buhay.Di ba? Andaming problema. Andaming kailangan gawin. Andaming kailangan ma-achieve. Andaming ganito, ganyan. Pero, di ba, sabi ko sayo masama mag-give up. Ang hindi ko lang nasabi kung bakit masama 'yun.
At nagsisisi ako na hindi kita nasabihan. Sorry, kasi late ko rin narealize kung bakit mali 'yun. Sana pala, nag-share ako agad sayo nung time na nag-reflect ako. Kaso, hindi na rin kasi tayo ganun kaclose. Sorry na hindi natuloy yung closeness natin. Sorry na hindi kita natulungan, na hindi kita nakausap, na hindi ko alam na may pinagdadaanan ka pala.
Gusto kitang pagalitan ngayon. Pero, I also feel so sorry for you. I'm sorry that you felt that it was the only way out for you.
Alam mo, masama yun. Masama mag-give up. Lahat tayo nawalan na ng minamahal sa buhay. Diba, yun ngang grandparents na alam na dapat natin na law of nature, everybody will die someday. Pero, pag may nawala, kahit by old age, ang hirap pa rin tanggapin. Paano pa kaya yung ikaw mismo nagdecide na ayaw mo na? Sobrang hirap para samin. Lahat kami apektado. Lahat kami may pagkukulang sayo. Ang bigat ng loob naming lahat. Andami naming para sayo, andami naming nagmamahal sayo, pero, wala kaming nagawa. Hindi mo man lang kami nakausap, nasabihan na may problema, na nahihirapan ka na.
Sana nanood ka nalang ng anime. Sana naglasing ka nalang. Sana nag-drugs ka nalang. Siguro madali lang makalimutan 'yun. Pero, yung ganto? Yung hindi ka na namin makikita til we reach our own time? Sobrang hirap talaga.
Sadyang totoo nga na yung mga tayong sobrang sayang kasama dahil sobrang masayahin sila ay ang mga taong maraming tinatagong hirap sa buhay.
Geo, I know na there should have been a better world for you. I'm sorry you are no longer here to be in it.
Labels: #drama, #life, %taglish, `friends, `life, sad
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[A/N] I will try my best to make this as honest and revealing as I can get.
Before I went to bed, the last thing I remember is thinking of Nikka Apostol. I was texting her on my mind about the type of girls we were: cutie, animated, colorful, petite... Then all of a sudden I was in a room.
It was a block room, one side didn't have a wall and opened to what looked like a typical western neighborhood. Let's call this side "the hole". Opposite to that side, there was a single door. I was seated facing the door. Out came Jemar and Ashley, saying their hi's before leaving through the hole. Followed by Fed, amazingly holding a ball. Then came my first group of friends: Mea, Nae, and Paula. Nae sat across me, and on her right was Paula. Mea sat on my left. There was a table, btw.
"Ano 'yung issue na sabi nila, lagi nalang daw kayong sunod samin ni Mea?" Nae asked. I honestly don't know what she's talking about.
"Never heard of that issue."
"'Yung ano, sabi nga nila lagi lang daw kayong sunod samin?"
"Hind ko nga alam kung ano 'yan." I said, a little annoyed. I look at Paula who was playing with Nae's hair.
"Kunwari ka lang na hindi mo alam, pero alam kong alam mo." To me, I thought she was implying something, but her voice and facial expression are all too innocent.
"Hindi 'yan ang naririnig kong issue. Katext ko lang si Nikka kanina, wala naman kaming napag-usapang ganyan."
Nae made a "okay, whatever" face.
"Eh, ikaw. Bat ba ang init ng ulo mo sakin? Nakikipagbati ako sayo, ayaw mo. Hindi kita papansin, ayaw mo. Magrereact ako, ayaw mo. Ano ba talagang gusto mo?"
Paula let go of Nae's hair and sat straight, looking quite distressed. Nae, just looked, disappointed. I look at Mea and she was, idk why, blank. Non-moving, looking far beyond her knees. Not smiling, not frowning. Just blank.
"Bakit ba hindi tayo makapagbati-bati? We were friends before, it shouldn't be a problem." "Sabi ko kasi sayo, eh-" I don't know who Paula directed this statement to.
And then Nix came saying she received my text.
What. Labels: #cw, #update, %taglish, sad, text
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You have lots of them and I have lots, too.
However, you are not facing it alone anymore.
I am here to support you.
ALSO, if your problems bother you too much
and can not do anything about it at the moment,
then play the following:
DotA or DotA 2
L4D 1 or 2
Pokemon games
Sims
Skyrim
DA 1 or 2
or if you want to just let it go away for a second
then just stare at this guy:
Labels: #random, %english, `love life, `problem, happy, sad, text
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I think 80% of my total posts are made when I'm down and gray. And as you can see, this is a post about me, not The Beatles.
I grew up listening to The Beatles. My Dad is a fanboy, we tease him about it. Haha. Anyway, as I was saying I grew up knowing it ain't easy, I know how hard it could be. The way things are going, they're gonna crucify me. So, help! I need someone. Yesterday, all my troubles seems so far away, now, it looks like they're here to stay. Help me if you can, I'm feeling down. And I do appreciate you being around. I want to hold your hand. I'll let you be my man, and I'll let you hold my hand. And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
Anyway, there will be an answer. Let it be. They say, don't carry the world on your shoulders. Well, you now. It's a fool who plays it cool by making his world a little colder. Take a sad song and make it better. :) Nothing you can see that isn't shown. There's nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
I bet I'm high on nail polish. Labels: #cw, %english, `fandom, `problem, sad, text
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to my hs schoolmate, friend, kapakapatid, Geo
Di ba naging close tayo? Naaalala ko pa kung pano tayo naging close. Kasi, magkapitbahay tayo ng classrooms. Haha. Tapos sinasabihan mo ko na cute, na crush mo ko. Niloloko naman kita na pwede ka na rin, cute na rin, haha. Pero, sabi mo may crush ka talaga... Tinatanong mo pa ko kung paano ba manligaw. Tinatawanan pa kita nun. Sabi ko, bata ka pa, wag ka magmadali. Pero, go ka pa rin. Kasi nga crush na crush mo sya, sabi mo. Eh di, sige, "kung gusto mo talaga."
Naalala ko pa yung tinext mo ko, Sunday 'yun. Sabi mo nag-date kayo. Tas nahalikan mo sya. Tinawanan na naman kita. Sabi ko masyado kang nagmamadali. Pero, sige lang, kasi masaya ka naman. Kaya masaya na rin ako.
Tapos naging kayo na. At alam kong masaya ka talaga.
Paano nga ba tayo natigil magkatext?
Ah. Nung nagkaproblema ako sa sarili kong relationship ata. Blinock out ko rin lahat. At nung okay na ko, di na kita nabalikan.
Pero, hindi naman tayo nag-away. Di rin naman tayo nagkalayuan ng loob. Okay pa rin tayo. Cool pa rin tayo sa isa't isa kahit di na tayo close tulad ng dati.
Naalala ko rin pala, na napagusapan natin noon kung paano kahirap ang buhay.Di ba? Andaming problema. Andaming kailangan gawin. Andaming kailangan ma-achieve. Andaming ganito, ganyan. Pero, di ba, sabi ko sayo masama mag-give up. Ang hindi ko lang nasabi kung bakit masama 'yun.
At nagsisisi ako na hindi kita nasabihan. Sorry, kasi late ko rin narealize kung bakit mali 'yun. Sana pala, nag-share ako agad sayo nung time na nag-reflect ako. Kaso, hindi na rin kasi tayo ganun kaclose. Sorry na hindi natuloy yung closeness natin. Sorry na hindi kita natulungan, na hindi kita nakausap, na hindi ko alam na may pinagdadaanan ka pala.
Gusto kitang pagalitan ngayon. Pero, I also feel so sorry for you. I'm sorry that you felt that it was the only way out for you.
Alam mo, masama yun. Masama mag-give up. Lahat tayo nawalan na ng minamahal sa buhay. Diba, yun ngang grandparents na alam na dapat natin na law of nature, everybody will die someday. Pero, pag may nawala, kahit by old age, ang hirap pa rin tanggapin. Paano pa kaya yung ikaw mismo nagdecide na ayaw mo na? Sobrang hirap para samin. Lahat kami apektado. Lahat kami may pagkukulang sayo. Ang bigat ng loob naming lahat. Andami naming para sayo, andami naming nagmamahal sayo, pero, wala kaming nagawa. Hindi mo man lang kami nakausap, nasabihan na may problema, na nahihirapan ka na.
Sana nanood ka nalang ng anime. Sana naglasing ka nalang. Sana nag-drugs ka nalang. Siguro madali lang makalimutan 'yun. Pero, yung ganto? Yung hindi ka na namin makikita til we reach our own time? Sobrang hirap talaga.
Sadyang totoo nga na yung mga tayong sobrang sayang kasama dahil sobrang masayahin sila ay ang mga taong maraming tinatagong hirap sa buhay.
Geo, I know na there should have been a better world for you. I'm sorry you are no longer here to be in it.
Labels: #drama, #life, %taglish, `friends, `life, sad
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[A/N] I will try my best to make this as honest and revealing as I can get.
Before I went to bed, the last thing I remember is thinking of Nikka Apostol. I was texting her on my mind about the type of girls we were: cutie, animated, colorful, petite... Then all of a sudden I was in a room.
It was a block room, one side didn't have a wall and opened to what looked like a typical western neighborhood. Let's call this side "the hole". Opposite to that side, there was a single door. I was seated facing the door. Out came Jemar and Ashley, saying their hi's before leaving through the hole. Followed by Fed, amazingly holding a ball. Then came my first group of friends: Mea, Nae, and Paula. Nae sat across me, and on her right was Paula. Mea sat on my left. There was a table, btw.
"Ano 'yung issue na sabi nila, lagi nalang daw kayong sunod samin ni Mea?" Nae asked. I honestly don't know what she's talking about.
"Never heard of that issue."
"'Yung ano, sabi nga nila lagi lang daw kayong sunod samin?"
"Hind ko nga alam kung ano 'yan." I said, a little annoyed. I look at Paula who was playing with Nae's hair.
"Kunwari ka lang na hindi mo alam, pero alam kong alam mo." To me, I thought she was implying something, but her voice and facial expression are all too innocent.
"Hindi 'yan ang naririnig kong issue. Katext ko lang si Nikka kanina, wala naman kaming napag-usapang ganyan."
Nae made a "okay, whatever" face.
"Eh, ikaw. Bat ba ang init ng ulo mo sakin? Nakikipagbati ako sayo, ayaw mo. Hindi kita papansin, ayaw mo. Magrereact ako, ayaw mo. Ano ba talagang gusto mo?"
Paula let go of Nae's hair and sat straight, looking quite distressed. Nae, just looked, disappointed. I look at Mea and she was, idk why, blank. Non-moving, looking far beyond her knees. Not smiling, not frowning. Just blank.
"Bakit ba hindi tayo makapagbati-bati? We were friends before, it shouldn't be a problem." "Sabi ko kasi sayo, eh-" I don't know who Paula directed this statement to.
And then Nix came saying she received my text.
What. Labels: #cw, #update, %taglish, sad, text
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You have lots of them and I have lots, too.
However, you are not facing it alone anymore.
I am here to support you.
ALSO, if your problems bother you too much
and can not do anything about it at the moment,
then play the following:
DotA or DotA 2
L4D 1 or 2
Pokemon games
Sims
Skyrim
DA 1 or 2
or if you want to just let it go away for a second
then just stare at this guy:
Labels: #random, %english, `love life, `problem, happy, sad, text
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I think 80% of my total posts are made when I'm down and gray. And as you can see, this is a post about me, not The Beatles.
I grew up listening to The Beatles. My Dad is a fanboy, we tease him about it. Haha. Anyway, as I was saying I grew up knowing it ain't easy, I know how hard it could be. The way things are going, they're gonna crucify me. So, help! I need someone. Yesterday, all my troubles seems so far away, now, it looks like they're here to stay. Help me if you can, I'm feeling down. And I do appreciate you being around. I want to hold your hand. I'll let you be my man, and I'll let you hold my hand. And when I touch you I feel happy inside.
Anyway, there will be an answer. Let it be. They say, don't carry the world on your shoulders. Well, you now. It's a fool who plays it cool by making his world a little colder. Take a sad song and make it better. :) Nothing you can see that isn't shown. There's nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
I bet I'm high on nail polish. Labels: #cw, %english, `fandom, `problem, sad, text
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tagboard soon
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The cat loves to purr, and meow, and hiss. She's a very noisy cat, obviously. Kitty loves to sleep, next to her love for food. Food she loves include pizza, pasta, crepes, pancakes, cakes, milktea,burgers, etc. She loves being worshipped. Bow down to me!!! She loves cuddles, unless we're not close, eew don't touch me freak.
This kitty is in-love with a non-reacting bunny. He's always acting cool, and fails at it. He is crazy and loves computers.
This is still pretty much under construction; hence the emptiness.
Adopted Trees.
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