Are truths denied to be true still considered as the truth?
Are lies believed to be real still flaws of the reality?
Labels: #cw, %english, `life
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People lie. People pretend.
I'm overwhelmed with this week's drama. People just started admitting their faults, and then some confessed their love (WHAT THE HELL, PREDATORS), and then, some other weird confessions.
And, I wonder, will things be better if I didn't know these?
My concern, however, are the people that I think needs to talk to me. Why aren't you talking? :/ Labels: #life, #update, %english, `me
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I want to be the person who gives you another chance, the person who understands your actions, the person who'll never judge your flaws, the person who'll accept every speck of your being and call you beautiful. I want to be the person who'll love you unconditionally.
I want to be the person I want you to be towards me... :(
I'm setting my pride aside... Labels: #update, %english, `life, `me, suicidal
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Make the most out of it.
People started re-connecting with me. Wondering how I've been, how I am. It's nice that they're here when I don't have much left.
People started apologizing. Which is super weird. Was it because of the Brotip? "Don't do bad things to people who have blogs"? I don't just mean one person, there were a few. I never knew they were making fun of me, :/ And I still don't know how to handle confessions of such acts. I can't hate these people, I pushed them away, they have the right to hate me.
But, I am waiting for one person to be real. Whoever that person is. I wish I could personally tell that person to go fjbisvkjbksjfkjnfdn in hell. :( Labels: #update, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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[EDIT] SHIT. T_____T I can't believe I almost... sorry.
There will be no scheduled posts. I'll post when I get the time. Labels: #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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I have always been mean by nature, huh? I tried to push people away. I tried to think differently... Yet, here you are, giving me a helping hand. God blessed me with tiny pieces of miracles, I was just too scared to put them all together. I love my friends.
I'm sorry you guys have to see me like this. Again. I'm sorry if I'm not answering your questions, and if I'm being such a hard hat. I appreciate your concern. I love you sooo much for offering your help. If I have denied you, sorry. I didn't mean to. Things are just too raw to talk about again and again.
Atleast I have a reason to smile... :)
Labels: #life, #update, %english
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I'm sorry about what I've said. I'm sorry about the things I've thought of. I'm sorry about the things I've done.
I'm sorry that there are words I never said. I'm sorry if I have a limited mind. I'm sorry for the things I didn't do.
Up to the end, I can't hurt you... Labels: #update, %english, `death, `me, suicidal
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I wonder if I'm being mean. Most of the time, I'm not thinking of what I'm saying... And right now, I'm speaking with a broken (better yet, shattered) heart. The things I know of, I mention. Things I don't know of, I think of worse.
I still just can't believe one of my supposedly best friends would do this to me. Labels: #life, #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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I started this in Tumblr, and I just want to keep up with it, so...
1. A song from your childhood. - Sometimes by Britney Spears [comment] I can think of Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, Christina Aguilera, Backstreet Boys, NSYNC... I have lots on my mind, really. But, I like this song best. Because it's so honest. - Wizard of Oz by Clazziquai [comment] Rihanna's Unfaithful and P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You) are too weak, since they remind me of other stuff as well, but, in some point, yes, these songs remind me of him, too. - I Want to Hold Your Hand by The Beatles [comment] Every single Beatles song reminds me of my parents. Because my dad is a fan. Oh, LOL. Thriller by MJ reminds me of my Mom. She said it was rly in, and that every cool person knows the dance, so she knows it... because, yeah, my Mom was one of the cool kids, according to her. HAHAHA. Thriller. xD - Peace, Love, and Ice Cream by Younha [comment] Younha's voice relaxes me. I've been listening to this song for a year now, and it still clams me down. :) - I Love You, Goodbye by Juris [comment] Maybe because it's always remade, and maybe it always finds its way to the radio, but, I keep hearing this song. And when I hear this song, it'll be stuck in my head for two-three weeks. I sing it all the time when I remember it. - In or Out by Sandara Park [comment] This one reminds me of Kalidale Navarro Diaz, since we were Sandara fans together. And then other songs remind me of other best friends... - Dreams Come True by Hey!Say!JUMP [comment] It just came in my mind, so, yeah. That's it. :P
8. A song that reminds you of your first love.
- Brown Eyes by Destiny's Child [comment] Literally, he has bright brown eyes. And the song is just lovely. - Sunset Glow by Big Bang [comment] I don't really know the meaning of the song I know that the lyrics of the song is actually sad, but, when I think of hope, it pops up in my mind. :)
10. A song by your favorite band.
- After Love by FT Island [comment] This is the first song I've heard from FTI, and Wonbin was still the rapper. I miss him. T__T You leaving me is all a lie... - School of Rock by School of Rock Cast [comment] FREDDY ♥ - Let Me Hear Your Voice (Accoustic Version) by Big Bang [comment] I've just read the lyrics... Wow. :)
13. A song that reminds you of a former friend.
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14. A song that reminds you of your spouse (my boyfriend). -
15. A song you love singing along to. -
16. A song that has made you cry. -
17. A song that makes you want to dance. -
18. A song that you love but rarely listen to. -
19. The first song alphabetically in your iTunes (my playlist). -
20. The last song alphabetically in your iTunes (my playlist). -
21. Your favorite song. -
22. A song that someone has sung to you. -
23. A song that you cannot stand to listen to. -
24. A song that you have danced to with your best friend. -
25. A song you could listen to all day without getting tired of. - Labels: #list, #stickynotes, %english, `me
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Sometimes, for some fucked up reasons, things cloud your mind and you become uncertain about a few things in life. After some time, it'll prolly turn out well. If not, it's best try to figure things out on your own. Don't make things worse. Kumbaga, kung nagkasakit ka, at hindi enough and tubig at pahinga, DUDE, UMINOM KA NA NG GAMOT.
But, what if you're unsure for so long? What if it's periodic? Why the fucking hell are you doubting?
OKAY, I'm not going to try and work this out in other ways, I'll just go straight to the point... Or, random points.
For you, what is Love? EEW. SCRATCH THAT.
There are times that you "feel" you love someone. That's to say, "you are in-love". When you say "you're in-love", it doesn't necessarily mean you are loving. Being in-love with someone is different from loving someone. Well, atleast that's what I've read. And from how I use the words "in-love", I think it's safe to say that you don't necessarily love the person you're in-love with. You might just admire them so much. You're a fan. You're a follower... You're something other than a lover.
And then there's this feeling of being in-love with the relationship. Maybe you don't love the person, you just love the idea of having him/her in your life as your special someone... or one of your special persons. *coughwhorecough*
Convenience. It's common among people I personally know. They are in a relationship with someone they've know for sometime, and both parties have agreed that they need each other. Love comes afterwards... most of the time. It's having a relationship with someone you can be with for a long time without getting tired... someone who knows you, and knows how to deal with you. They're what you need, and of course, you should be what they'd need.
IDK what I'm saying, rly. I'm just randomly spilling what's in my mind... at 1:54 AM. And my class is 7AM-4PM.
Shit happens.
KBye.
Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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Everybody faces a wide range of failures everyday. But not everybody knows how to deal with failure. Not everybody is patient enough, or confident enough, that there is a better tomorrow. Giving up is always my option. When I'm facing a problem, I usually spend 50% of the time convincing myself not to give up, 25% trying to think of something else (ignoring the problem), 15% worrying (crying, and feeling terrible), and just 10% of actual problem solving (thinking of a way to move on and feel better). Suicide is one swift exit from all the problems (and perks) of life. It's so tempting when problems just come piling up outside my door. But, I know how it feels to permanently lose someone. I don't want to be a disgrace to the people who loves me. I'm not going to boast about how hundreds of people will miss me. Because, srsly, I think about the people who look forward to my success. I don't want to disappoint those who have faith in me. And those who've challenged me, those who said I've reached my limit, I want to prove them wrong. I don't want to give them the satisfaction. I still want to see what my friends (all types of friends) will do with their lives. I want to see how life is. I still want to learn about the greatest ways of living my life. I want to be inspired. I have to endure every fall, every push and shove, every failure, for simple things in life. When I get slapped in the face, and I get back to my right mind, I usually just wear my best smile and put on my comfiest shoes. You won't get me down. I may fail, but, I will drive this life in a way that these things won't matter in my next destination. Maybe I'm failing in life because I'm not inspired enough, or my priorities aren't set straight. Whether it's this or that, I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Failure happens to everybody, but, happiness is a choice. I may fail, but I'll keep on smiling and thinking positive (as much as I can). If I can't find my inspiration, I think I should at least help others be inspired. If I can't set my own life straight, I think I should at least tell others not to be like me. But, guys, if I do kill myself, I'm sorry. I'm not the one to talk, but, I hope you people keep yourselves alive and prove me that everything can be better.
[june 03] Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, random, suicidal
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Are truths denied to be true still considered as the truth?
Are lies believed to be real still flaws of the reality?
Labels: #cw, %english, `life
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People lie. People pretend.
I'm overwhelmed with this week's drama. People just started admitting their faults, and then some confessed their love (WHAT THE HELL, PREDATORS), and then, some other weird confessions.
And, I wonder, will things be better if I didn't know these?
My concern, however, are the people that I think needs to talk to me. Why aren't you talking? :/ Labels: #life, #update, %english, `me
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I want to be the person who gives you another chance, the person who understands your actions, the person who'll never judge your flaws, the person who'll accept every speck of your being and call you beautiful. I want to be the person who'll love you unconditionally.
I want to be the person I want you to be towards me... :(
I'm setting my pride aside... Labels: #update, %english, `life, `me, suicidal
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Make the most out of it.
People started re-connecting with me. Wondering how I've been, how I am. It's nice that they're here when I don't have much left.
People started apologizing. Which is super weird. Was it because of the Brotip? "Don't do bad things to people who have blogs"? I don't just mean one person, there were a few. I never knew they were making fun of me, :/ And I still don't know how to handle confessions of such acts. I can't hate these people, I pushed them away, they have the right to hate me.
But, I am waiting for one person to be real. Whoever that person is. I wish I could personally tell that person to go fjbisvkjbksjfkjnfdn in hell. :( Labels: #update, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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[EDIT] SHIT. T_____T I can't believe I almost... sorry.
There will be no scheduled posts. I'll post when I get the time. Labels: #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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I have always been mean by nature, huh? I tried to push people away. I tried to think differently... Yet, here you are, giving me a helping hand. God blessed me with tiny pieces of miracles, I was just too scared to put them all together. I love my friends.
I'm sorry you guys have to see me like this. Again. I'm sorry if I'm not answering your questions, and if I'm being such a hard hat. I appreciate your concern. I love you sooo much for offering your help. If I have denied you, sorry. I didn't mean to. Things are just too raw to talk about again and again.
Atleast I have a reason to smile... :)
Labels: #life, #update, %english
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I'm sorry about what I've said. I'm sorry about the things I've thought of. I'm sorry about the things I've done.
I'm sorry that there are words I never said. I'm sorry if I have a limited mind. I'm sorry for the things I didn't do.
Up to the end, I can't hurt you... Labels: #update, %english, `death, `me, suicidal
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I wonder if I'm being mean. Most of the time, I'm not thinking of what I'm saying... And right now, I'm speaking with a broken (better yet, shattered) heart. The things I know of, I mention. Things I don't know of, I think of worse.
I still just can't believe one of my supposedly best friends would do this to me. Labels: #life, #update, %english, `death, suicidal
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I started this in Tumblr, and I just want to keep up with it, so...
1. A song from your childhood. - Sometimes by Britney Spears [comment] I can think of Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, Christina Aguilera, Backstreet Boys, NSYNC... I have lots on my mind, really. But, I like this song best. Because it's so honest. - Wizard of Oz by Clazziquai [comment] Rihanna's Unfaithful and P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You) are too weak, since they remind me of other stuff as well, but, in some point, yes, these songs remind me of him, too. - I Want to Hold Your Hand by The Beatles [comment] Every single Beatles song reminds me of my parents. Because my dad is a fan. Oh, LOL. Thriller by MJ reminds me of my Mom. She said it was rly in, and that every cool person knows the dance, so she knows it... because, yeah, my Mom was one of the cool kids, according to her. HAHAHA. Thriller. xD - Peace, Love, and Ice Cream by Younha [comment] Younha's voice relaxes me. I've been listening to this song for a year now, and it still clams me down. :) - I Love You, Goodbye by Juris [comment] Maybe because it's always remade, and maybe it always finds its way to the radio, but, I keep hearing this song. And when I hear this song, it'll be stuck in my head for two-three weeks. I sing it all the time when I remember it. - In or Out by Sandara Park [comment] This one reminds me of Kalidale Navarro Diaz, since we were Sandara fans together. And then other songs remind me of other best friends... - Dreams Come True by Hey!Say!JUMP [comment] It just came in my mind, so, yeah. That's it. :P
8. A song that reminds you of your first love.
- Brown Eyes by Destiny's Child [comment] Literally, he has bright brown eyes. And the song is just lovely. - Sunset Glow by Big Bang [comment] I don't really know the meaning of the song I know that the lyrics of the song is actually sad, but, when I think of hope, it pops up in my mind. :)
10. A song by your favorite band.
- After Love by FT Island [comment] This is the first song I've heard from FTI, and Wonbin was still the rapper. I miss him. T__T You leaving me is all a lie... - School of Rock by School of Rock Cast [comment] FREDDY ♥ - Let Me Hear Your Voice (Accoustic Version) by Big Bang [comment] I've just read the lyrics... Wow. :)
13. A song that reminds you of a former friend.
-
14. A song that reminds you of your spouse (my boyfriend). -
15. A song you love singing along to. -
16. A song that has made you cry. -
17. A song that makes you want to dance. -
18. A song that you love but rarely listen to. -
19. The first song alphabetically in your iTunes (my playlist). -
20. The last song alphabetically in your iTunes (my playlist). -
21. Your favorite song. -
22. A song that someone has sung to you. -
23. A song that you cannot stand to listen to. -
24. A song that you have danced to with your best friend. -
25. A song you could listen to all day without getting tired of. - Labels: #list, #stickynotes, %english, `me
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Sometimes, for some fucked up reasons, things cloud your mind and you become uncertain about a few things in life. After some time, it'll prolly turn out well. If not, it's best try to figure things out on your own. Don't make things worse. Kumbaga, kung nagkasakit ka, at hindi enough and tubig at pahinga, DUDE, UMINOM KA NA NG GAMOT.
But, what if you're unsure for so long? What if it's periodic? Why the fucking hell are you doubting?
OKAY, I'm not going to try and work this out in other ways, I'll just go straight to the point... Or, random points.
For you, what is Love? EEW. SCRATCH THAT.
There are times that you "feel" you love someone. That's to say, "you are in-love". When you say "you're in-love", it doesn't necessarily mean you are loving. Being in-love with someone is different from loving someone. Well, atleast that's what I've read. And from how I use the words "in-love", I think it's safe to say that you don't necessarily love the person you're in-love with. You might just admire them so much. You're a fan. You're a follower... You're something other than a lover.
And then there's this feeling of being in-love with the relationship. Maybe you don't love the person, you just love the idea of having him/her in your life as your special someone... or one of your special persons. *coughwhorecough*
Convenience. It's common among people I personally know. They are in a relationship with someone they've know for sometime, and both parties have agreed that they need each other. Love comes afterwards... most of the time. It's having a relationship with someone you can be with for a long time without getting tired... someone who knows you, and knows how to deal with you. They're what you need, and of course, you should be what they'd need.
IDK what I'm saying, rly. I'm just randomly spilling what's in my mind... at 1:54 AM. And my class is 7AM-4PM.
Shit happens.
KBye.
Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, suicidal
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Everybody faces a wide range of failures everyday. But not everybody knows how to deal with failure. Not everybody is patient enough, or confident enough, that there is a better tomorrow. Giving up is always my option. When I'm facing a problem, I usually spend 50% of the time convincing myself not to give up, 25% trying to think of something else (ignoring the problem), 15% worrying (crying, and feeling terrible), and just 10% of actual problem solving (thinking of a way to move on and feel better). Suicide is one swift exit from all the problems (and perks) of life. It's so tempting when problems just come piling up outside my door. But, I know how it feels to permanently lose someone. I don't want to be a disgrace to the people who loves me. I'm not going to boast about how hundreds of people will miss me. Because, srsly, I think about the people who look forward to my success. I don't want to disappoint those who have faith in me. And those who've challenged me, those who said I've reached my limit, I want to prove them wrong. I don't want to give them the satisfaction. I still want to see what my friends (all types of friends) will do with their lives. I want to see how life is. I still want to learn about the greatest ways of living my life. I want to be inspired. I have to endure every fall, every push and shove, every failure, for simple things in life. When I get slapped in the face, and I get back to my right mind, I usually just wear my best smile and put on my comfiest shoes. You won't get me down. I may fail, but, I will drive this life in a way that these things won't matter in my next destination. Maybe I'm failing in life because I'm not inspired enough, or my priorities aren't set straight. Whether it's this or that, I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Failure happens to everybody, but, happiness is a choice. I may fail, but I'll keep on smiling and thinking positive (as much as I can). If I can't find my inspiration, I think I should at least help others be inspired. If I can't set my own life straight, I think I should at least tell others not to be like me. But, guys, if I do kill myself, I'm sorry. I'm not the one to talk, but, I hope you people keep yourselves alive and prove me that everything can be better.
[june 03] Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, random, suicidal
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tagboard soon
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The cat loves to purr, and meow, and hiss. She's a very noisy cat, obviously. Kitty loves to sleep, next to her love for food. Food she loves include pizza, pasta, crepes, pancakes, cakes, milktea,burgers, etc. She loves being worshipped. Bow down to me!!! She loves cuddles, unless we're not close, eew don't touch me freak.
This kitty is in-love with a non-reacting bunny. He's always acting cool, and fails at it. He is crazy and loves computers.
This is still pretty much under construction; hence the emptiness.
Adopted Trees.
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