I have been longing for the Asus Google Nexus 7 2nd Gen for a month now. The fact that it's being pulled out from stores to make way for the HTC Nexus 9 makes it more valuable. I have been looking for the 32GB Nexus 7 around SM North Edsa for two weeks, and I've only seen two stores. It was really frustrating when the day came that I would buy one, and the stores weren't selling them anymore. Still, I chanced upon Gigahertz and miraculously, they have one last stock.

It wasn't a new unit, it was already opened. I was going to point it out but I was too excited to have my hands on it. It was a little disappointing tho that it was starting up really slow and the kuya had to force shut down and restart just to make it work. I was already having second thoughts on buying an opened unit. I tried to check the unit, but the store didn't have internet connection. It wasn't lagging, since there were only the preloaded apps, and no internet to update the operating system. Since it was already late, we just bought it. I told myself to just check it our when I got home.

I updated the OS from 12MN-3AM. I was able to update it to Kitkat 4.4.4 when I started downloading apps like Twitter, Tumblr, KakaoTalk, and so on. It was when I open an app that it suddenly just crashed.  I started restarting it, but it was on loop on the Google logo. I did several factory resets but nothing happened. I came to the conclusion that it was a defective unit. I decided to consult online sources, but it being an "old" nexus, it's microsite has been taken down by Google.

So, anyway, I went back to Gigahertz after my 4PM class. I told them I was returning the unit and that I wanted my money back. They asked why, and I explained that the unit was defective. They asked someone to try to fix it first, told me that I can get a new unit in a few hours, if only I could just sit down. So, I did. I patiently waited, but I didn't have a Nexus 7 at the end of the day. Other branches don't have the model I bought. I told them, well then, give me back my money. They said they can't because it still need to be approved. Approved by what? In what case can it be disapproved? Surely, I should get my money back since, well obviously, I wasn't able to get my money's worth. They told me that the policy is first, try to change the unit, BUT YOU DON'T HAVE IT, so, maybe you can buy something else of the same price, BUT I DON'T WANT TO. I am buying an Asus Google Nexus 7, 32GB because it is now being pulled out from the market. I payed for it, and that's what I want. Why are they telling me what to get for my money? So, they told me to calm the shit down and promised that they will call their supplier and promised that I will get my unit within the week.

What has Gigahertz SM North Edsa violated?
1. It is printed on the receipt that there is an outright 7 day return/exchange for defective units. Which can not be according to RA 7394 Consumer Act of the Philippines.
2. It is the choice of the buyer if he/she wants a refund or an exchange. The store can not insist that they exchange the unit. RA 7394.

I am just really disappointed that most stores insist they make money. And I am quite disappointed that because of this, most Filipinos would think they don't have the right to return or exchange defective goods.

Nevertheless, I just want my Nexus 7 on Thursday as they promised. And whether or not I get it, I will make sure to file a complaint in DTI.

Labels: #life, #manic, #update, %english, `life, `problem, gigahertz, murderous, nexus 7, tatak pinoy, text

(I ended up posting it anyway)

1. Other Countries Consider DoTA 2 as an E-Sport
Here is the list of DoTA 2 Teams, just so you can see the different flags in there.

2. To support DoTA players in the PH.
The Philippines have a professional team, Mineski. There are others, who we do not know of,  because we don't support them. Just like that.

3. To show that Pinoy DoTA Players do not suck.
There's this convention that if you're Pinoy, you prolly suck at DoTA. Guys, sometime's it's just the lag. There are a few noobs like me, but, srsly, it's still teamwork and good internet connection.

4. DoTA makes you think, requires quick response.
It's not true that DoTA is a no-brainer. You have to be smart, you have to have a strategy, you have to respond quickly. You have to know your teammates, and know how to work with them. It's really fun chess kind of game.

5. To pressure internet providers to speed up development.
If DoTA 2 is considered an e-sport, that would make our country a possible host to possible events. DoTA 2 is an online game, even the LAN needs internet connection. What we consider "fast" right now here in the Philippines, is crap outside the country. If we want to complete globally, we can start with our internet connection, thank you very much.

6. To raise awareness what DoTA is.
DoTA 2 is not a pangtamad* game. It's just like chess, you have to outwit your opponent. It's just like basketball, you have to have teamwork. You have to have patience, to wait for the perfect time to defend or to push lanes.

The International is already in its fourth year. I wish to someday see a Philippine team up in the roster in less that five years.

*for the lazy

Labels: #list, %english, `fandom, `internet

Just a personal update on me. Because I love talking about myself, a flaw I share with every human being born to a modern world.

I have finally shifted into a course and college! I am now taking up Bachelor of Public Administration in the National College of Public Administration and Governance. I honestly applied blindly, not knowing what it is about. But, I'm glad I got in and that I signed with them. B. PA is a pre-law, so, I might actually end up taking law after all. Unfortunately, I am accustomed to reading fiction and writing nonsense; the total opposite of what we do in B PA. My classes are all theoretical this sem, all readings heavy, I might explode in any minute. But, so far, so good, I'm actively participating and enjoying my classes.

I would love to rant about why I did not get into Geology, or Clothing Technology. But the downward spiral of the quality of education in UP might be enough explanation for some colleges desperate moves of "keeping the delinquents out". And I'll leave it at that.

There's really nothing else I can say about myself. I've been planning to talk about DotA but someone else beat me to it, so I just gave up. Haha.

Some sensible posts soon!
♥

Labels: #life, #random, #update, %english, `life, `me

At first, I thought, WTF, but, I realized that I was actually just jealous.

Wattpad stories (novels/short stories) are being published left and right at the moment, and are becoming today's teens' literary works. She's Dating the Gangster and Diary ng Panget (Yes, pangEt. My Lingguistics prof would flip.) even have movies now. I am all for writers' dreams of getting published come true.

I only have two concerns in this happening. My first concern is that, hopefully, publishing houses are editing  these stories thoroughly, making sure that whichever language the authors are using, the rules of grammar are still followed.

Since I was 13 years old, I've been reading either children's books, thrillers, or law novels (do they call John Grisham a law novel author? I'm not sure what genre that is. Haha.). My share of fantasizing about a prince sweeping me off of my feet would come from the cheesy teleseryes on TV that my family would watch during dinner and homework time. I think if I watched cheesy teleseryes, read cheesy novels, watched cheesy anime, and read cheesy manga, I would be a total hopeless romantic, selling myself cheap to guys who don't really care about me. And that is my second concern, the theme of these stories being about finding love when you're young. Maybe you can, I'm not saying it's impossible. I just hope that it is not being sold to young girls, with the problem of teenage pregnancy already growing.

I'd still have to say thumbs up to the authors, keep writing, keep learning, keep experimenting. And to readers, be smart. You read because you are smart, so be wise, too. Learn to separate fiction from reality, and use your books as inspirations rather than guidelines to living life. Unless you're reading powerful books.

Labels: #manic, #random, %english, `internet

First of all, I would like to say that I totally loved the Disney animated movie of Sleeping Beauty. I've seen it numerous times, and I believe I have enough idea of what each character's personality is. Growing up, I have also read some adaptations. In my opinion, I have enough background of how evil Maleficent is.

She has always been portrayed as the baddest bitch in the fairy land. She crashes parties. She curses babies. She grows thorny shit everywhere 'cause you shall not pass. She breaks the land so you'll fall to your death trying to pass. I told you, you shall not pass. She becomes a dragon for fucks sake. She's the most evil villain in my childhood, even eviler than Voldemort (who's secretly gay, I swear).

But, the movie, surprisingly by Disney, portrayed Maleficent as confused and bitter. I didn't like how the story went, I was so confused and disappointed. It may have been because I've seen the old animated film, but me and my brother were WTF-ing the whole time.

WTF moments:
1. When Maleficent cursed the baby Aurora into an unending sleep.
WHAAAT?! Why would she go so soft on her betraying lover's precious innocent daughter?! She should not have held back, and just said YOU WILL DIE YOU FUCK.
2. When Maleficent added that Aurora will wake up to true love's kiss, and then looked at Stephen like "you know, 'cause there's no such thing as true love"
Why should they portray Maleficent as a bitter ex lover? She should just have been angry and destructive. I mean, I acknowledge that in the background story, he betrayed her, mutilated her. But, can't she just be mean to him without saying 'cause you broke my heart.
3. The three fairies
Because they were portrayed as careless and simply silly. Aurora went running to godknowswhere, and they never suspect a thing.
4. Maleficent takes care of Aurora. She tries to take the curse back. She wakes Aurora up with her kiss.
The queen of evil should have a heart of stone. End of story.
5. Maleficent does not transform into a dragon.
Just. No.

Good point of the movie:
1. Great acting
2. Great effects
3. Nice background story.
4. I finally know what that crow is.

Overall, I still like the classic story of an evil fairy trying to kill a baby. That is all. OKbye.

Labels: #manic, %english, `films

So, I just got my laptop back! I will try to be active online again!

ATM Twitter, Ask.fm, and Tumblr are open in other tabs. I'm trying to catch up. Not that two or three people are looking at SuicidalFoot everyday, though.
Anyway, my laptop also lacks a lot of programs. That screen cap was saved in paint. Oh God. What has life come to. I don't have WinRar, Photoshop, and I'm not sure what else. It'll take some time 'til my laptop is back forreals.

Anyway, I got rejected in Clothing Tech. Like last year, I got rejected in Geol. So, I'm thinking of quitting school and just go hobo.

I've been reading and watching a lot. Don't want to get into any details as of now...

But, srsly, I don't know what else to do with my life. I try my best to go straight and the universe fucks it.

I'll post better soon. Okbye.

Labels: #life, #random, #rant, %english, `me, `problem, `school

It was a weird sem, last sem was.
I've heard from most people that it had been their worst sem (so far). It was, too, for me. I was forced to go Non-Maj, it was a billion times harder to get classes, I had a 5:30-7PM WF class, and... well, I could list all the fuck-up's and, yet, it was actually the best sem I've ever had, too.

When I got the Geol 40 class, I was (though, still am) really determined to do good with the sem. I took it as a sign from God, that He is finally giving me what I want and that I have to do my best not to fuck it up.

I had lesser missed and late classes. I would actually study earlier than the night before the exam. I read ahead the lectures, most of the times. I read notes, if applicable. I was, in a sense, being a better me. I was, finally, studying.

I guess that's the reason I felt so stressed. Because, though I wasn't hoping for uno's, I was hoping to get better grades... anything is better than what I've had before, anyway.

I did study. I did get better grades. I did dream.

Yet, I still failed to get what I want.

There is no such thing as "work hard and you'll get what you want." Life is just luck.

I seem to be unlucky.

Labels: #drama, #life, %english, `life, suicidal

Excited Bunny is excited!

I can not put into the words the feelings I had in that concert. My summary would be: "wtfawesomeshitseungrycriesfeels omgicant feelstoomuchfeels." I am sorry.

I would just want to thank my boyfriend for making this experience possible. You are the best! Thank you! I love you so much!

Labels: #update, %english, `love life, high

Marcgell and I went to ATC for the gaming expo. We participated in the scavengers hunt by PC Express. We also met up with his couple orgmates to eat. Basically, we went out for a date before I needed to leave for the Bihawo Outreach, when something really weird happened. Lady Boss asked if I was bringing Marcgell along. I told her that she already said one too many "no non-KappaThEDs allowed". She said papayag naman s'ya basta magpaalam ng maayos. So, I took advantage and asked if I could bring my boyfriend along. Luckily, I was able to bring him along, for the second time around.

I asked Marcgell to lend me shirts because I no longer had clothes. We ended up looking crazy on the first day of the outreach.

I'm really not good with kids. I will murder them. I swear. But, you know, I couldn't because we were there to help them instead. Haha. I was able to endure a day-long play-work with the kids. We did lectures on disaster preparedness, too. Mine was totally impromptu, because, well, I didn't research, I didn't listen, too. But, I think I did a pretty good job with the basics. Haha :)

I loved the part where we gave out sleepers. Most kids preferred looks over quality. It is one of the many luxuries their situation can not afford. I tried my best to convince them to go for the quality, but, kids will be kids. We were there to make them happy.

Karla, Lady Boss Mich, Inah, Meeee, Lia

zebraaaaa

The night at Dawal, I was not able to enjoy to the fullest. When Irah and I went in our room to rest after dinner, we fell asleep. Funny thing is, Marcgell and ML were there watching TV with us. THEY DIDN'T EVEN WOKE US UP. They just left us and went to drink and have fun with the rest of the world. Brod Love jokingly said it was really what ML and Marcgell planned, to get us to bed early so they can have a look-out for possible hit-ons. When Irah and I woke up, it was already curfew, they were no longer releasing drinks, and everyone were told to go to bed. Bad thing, too, was Marcgell being kinda drunk. Since I'm not the kind that takes care of drunk people (since I'm the drunk person, on most occasions), Irah took care of my boyfriend for me. Haha. ML and I were just cheerleaders.

Irah and I had a private pool party the next day, well, not that private. We were joined by Inah, Albei, and our boyfriends ML and Marcgell. They tried teaching us to swim. Hahaha. :)) We also had some chismis over lunch.

T'was fun without the booze. Next year again, definitely!

Labels: #update, %english, `friends, `love life, `school, `sunshine, high, photo, text

1. He is my friend.
He knows me more than anyone else. Well, he used to. Now that we're together, there seems to be things we don't want to hear from each other. But, still, he knows me well.

2. He keeps me sane.
After driving me insane. Parang politiko. Will secretly destroy roads para asahan parin ng masa. Charot.

3. He needs me. I need him
Because I will be there for you even when I hate you.

4. He is always thinking of logical solutions.
Unlike me who acts on feelings.

5. He thinks highly of himself.

6. He is a fan.
I know. All you guys are my fans.

7. He puts up with me.
Very patient. Unlike me.

8. Considerate.
Unlike me.

adding...

9. He let's me eat whatever I want.
...most of the time.

10. He's always telling me that akin lang sya.

Labels: #manic, #rant, %english

I knew of Lonely Island from the I Just Had Sex music video, and the LIKE A BOSS meme.

Why are they famous?

I watched almost all their videos and I have realized their songs suck. They have great music, mix it shitty lyrics. They have great feats, but the main vocals are just wtf. It's so disturbing.


BUT THEY ARE REALLY FUNNY. OKAY? Bye.

Labels: %english, into it

It's so awkward meeting an ex-boyfriend's girlfriend. Whether you say you have moved on, you'll still ask yourself, "why her?"

Labels: #cw, #drama, %english, `friends, `love life, `problem

^this is a 2,500$ worth pc. better to have low chances than none at all. come join

Win computer gears from a giveaway by Team Infused

this post looks suspicious i know, but i am just lazy to make it look good. i hope my editor fixes this if she has time. anw, join. it is not a scam. it is legit. let us enjoy!!!

Labels: #manic, %english, `contest, text

RIP, Freedom of Speech & Freedom of Expression

[A/N] Ipinupusta ko ang limang taong kasama ko ang url na http://suicidalfoot.blogspot.com. I moved my blog in a not so very secret place, and here goes nothing...

I have read most of the Cybercrime Prevention Act of 2012, but not all of it. I may be wrong and I apologize in advance to whoever might get offended with this post.

We are in the digital age. We use our computers and phones to communicate, share, and discover. Facebook and Twitter have both became powerful tools of information dissemination. Aside from products and services, and events, and people, politic propaganda has also reached the said social networking site. Supporters of politicians bash each other. Parody accounts humiliated and branded a lot of corrupt and obviously incompetent politicians. But this "law" is beyond Facebook status and Twitter updates.

I am sure that at one point in our lives we have illegally downloaded copyrighted music, photos, videos; and some probably illegally shared their illegally acquired media. It is not that we want to harm industries that are concerned. When I was first introduced to the internet, I did not know that I was doing something illegal. I might have downloaded gigabytes of illegal media before I found out it was wrong. But, I could not do much about it. I did not know how to buy songs online, or why the need to pay for hard copies of magazines that had scans. And, how about our anime? Should I fly to Japan and buy them, and there won't be any subtitles, too?! And besides, it's already uploaded, I might as well take advantage of it.

Still, the Government is right: sharing copyrighted files is illegal.

I have been ranting for 5 years know, about school, about life, sometimes about the Government, too. I express my opinions and my raged thoughts. I believe it is my freedom to say what I want in my blog. It is, afterall, my blog. I am not asking my readers to agree with me. I am just starting an argument in their minds, to start them thinking on their own. I fuel their interest.

I would understand censoring Facebook and Twitter. This may be hard for me to say, but, I guess it makes sense. A lot of people will be influenced if someone said something in FB and Twitter. Worse part is, most of these people would not even know the whole story. Because it is a social networking site, you most like scroll through it, LIKE it, or RETWEET it, and then move on to the other topics shared. Because of the fast-paced online life in social networking sites, we either agree or disagree, most of the time without question.

But, a Cybercrime Prevention Law is not the answer to this. Whichever angle you look at it, this is an oppression of the Freedom of Speech and Freedom of Expression. Why not just tell people to be informed first before liking a page or a post, or before sharing a propaganda photo. (Okay, look who's talking, the girl who didn't even read the act in it's entirety).

How about cybersex? Seriously, guys. Do we still need to talk about this? If women and kids are being sold online, then, yes, that is obviously illegal. I'm sure there's a law for that already. But, what about two knowing, willing people (gender sensitive)? I think it is my choice to send a nude picture to my boyfriend if he asked for it. If I was offended we could talk about it like grown-ups. If I was harassed, why did I even have him as my boyfriend in the first place, right? Anyway, you say, what if they are strangers who just met online. One time they agreed to do webcam, then suddenly, the other party is jerkin' off. Well, I say, close that shit and delete that person from your network. You know, you have the power to block people from whatever accounts you are using. That's the magic of internet, baby.

I think it is time for us to grow up. This should not be such a big issue. It doesn't need a genius to figure out that this Cybercrime Prevention Law is just another excuse to use taxpayers' money.

#NoToCyberCrimeLaw

Labels: #manic, #rant, %english, `death, `internet, `problem, murderous, text

1. New author is moving in. LOL. :) Welcome to SuicidalFoot, Boyfriend!
2. This blog will prolly start anew. Themes and all.
3. Trying my best to "protect" my privacy. Tho, I'm not rly a private person, right? Haha. Who am I kidding?
4. Dying.FML.
5. I actually have entries lined up, but, I'm kinda scared of getting penalized or smth, LOL. You know government is a fucked up bitch. Might post it soon, anyway.

Off to work, bye!

Labels: #update, %english, `internet

Once in a while, or maybe most of the time, you'll argue about something simple, complicated, or just plain nonsense. These are the times when you feel helpless and just want to slap the person involved halfway to Mars. These are the times when your feelings reach the peak of your patience and just start spitting harsh words after another. These are the times when you just want to stop time and just stare at the sky and hope that everything will go well. However, the essence of arguments is to fix a problem. It is actually more of a positive experience, rather than a negative one. Arguments give hope and chance, it means you haven't given up on something. It depicts a better future if accepted positively by everyone.

Lately, there have been difficulties. There have been misunderstandings. There have been assumptions. But the truth is, I was just stubborn. I was just thinking too highly of myself. I am very proud of my awareness and sensitivity in this matter, and most of the time, I make the right decisions. I am blinded by my mindset. Today's experience has shown me all these. That I was wrong all along. Although I feel bad about committing such a disgusting mistake, I am also relieved and glad about it. It made me happy, actually: Happier than usual. And it unexpectedly brightened up my day... and for the rest of my days.

I was wrong and I finally admit it. I finally recognized it as my mistake. These long history of arguments and useless fights are now behind me, behind us. These feeling is so beautiful. I feel like I am shining. I feel like I can light up a dark room. It is all because of yesterday and today, and most importantly, because of a certain cat.

Don't get me wrong, I hate it when I am wrong.I resent it. But, this time around, it made me a better person.

Labels: #drama, #manic, %english

Six hours ago, allkpop posted the story about Big Bang member Seungri getting caught in a sex scandal.

Labels: #manic, %english, `fandom, murderous

I am scared of what can happen, what will happen. The future is but the consequences of what we do today. And, so, I am even more disheartened. If I fail, I can only blame myself. If my heart is broken, I can only blame myself. If I die regretting, I can only blame myself.

I keep stalling. Maybe it will be better. Maybe I don't need to decide. Maybe it'll present itself to me, somehow, someday.

I keep doubting myself. I can't do more than this. I'd fail even if I try. I'd fall just by walking.

I don't know how to take this negativity off of me. All I can do is pretend it's never there.

But, when the lights are off, and pjs are on, they come out of my bed and haunt me.

I don't want a broken heart.

Labels: #cw, #drama, #random, %english, `friends, `love life, `problem, `school

A memorandum was released last acad year about class suspension. Class will be suspended ONLY IF ONE OF THE FOLLOWING APPLIES: 1. blackout and/or debris is clattered throughout the campus; 2. C5 and/or PhilCoA (Commonwealth) are experiencing heavy traffic. Aside from these, declaration from CHEd and the government applies without the need of verification from the chancellor.

This past week, tbh, it hasn't been really rainy. It's just windy. Which makes it worst when it does actually rain. So, classes weren't suspended. "A little wind won't hurt."

And then the incident in the 4th floor happened. The "little wind" crashed a window and three students were hurt and rushed to the infirmary. Classes were then suspended in the 4th floor of AS only. Because that's where the "little wind" is deadly.

I think the second reason for suspension is a little insensitive. Take for instance my sisses Ienne and Cams, biological sisters, from Malabon. Malabon is experiencing heavy rain, and transportation is a killer. I quote the memorandum, "In principle, students are excused from attending classes if they are unable to travel to UP  Diliman from their respective residences due to flood and other natural calamities." It is the same as saying, "Fine, don't attend your classes, I understand. But we're still having class, anyway. You'll miss the class. But, who cares, safety first!"

Such a crazy week.

Labels: #rant, #update, %english, `school, suicidal, text

I'm sad. I miss you. Talk to me, please.

I'm mean.

Labels: #drama, #random, %english, sad, text

I have been longing for the Asus Google Nexus 7 2nd Gen for a month now. The fact that it's being pulled out from stores to make way for the HTC Nexus 9 makes it more valuable. I have been looking for the 32GB Nexus 7 around SM North Edsa for two weeks, and I've only seen two stores. It was really frustrating when the day came that I would buy one, and the stores weren't selling them anymore. Still, I chanced upon Gigahertz and miraculously, they have one last stock.

It wasn't a new unit, it was already opened. I was going to point it out but I was too excited to have my hands on it. It was a little disappointing tho that it was starting up really slow and the kuya had to force shut down and restart just to make it work. I was already having second thoughts on buying an opened unit. I tried to check the unit, but the store didn't have internet connection. It wasn't lagging, since there were only the preloaded apps, and no internet to update the operating system. Since it was already late, we just bought it. I told myself to just check it our when I got home.

I updated the OS from 12MN-3AM. I was able to update it to Kitkat 4.4.4 when I started downloading apps like Twitter, Tumblr, KakaoTalk, and so on. It was when I open an app that it suddenly just crashed.  I started restarting it, but it was on loop on the Google logo. I did several factory resets but nothing happened. I came to the conclusion that it was a defective unit. I decided to consult online sources, but it being an "old" nexus, it's microsite has been taken down by Google.

So, anyway, I went back to Gigahertz after my 4PM class. I told them I was returning the unit and that I wanted my money back. They asked why, and I explained that the unit was defective. They asked someone to try to fix it first, told me that I can get a new unit in a few hours, if only I could just sit down. So, I did. I patiently waited, but I didn't have a Nexus 7 at the end of the day. Other branches don't have the model I bought. I told them, well then, give me back my money. They said they can't because it still need to be approved. Approved by what? In what case can it be disapproved? Surely, I should get my money back since, well obviously, I wasn't able to get my money's worth. They told me that the policy is first, try to change the unit, BUT YOU DON'T HAVE IT, so, maybe you can buy something else of the same price, BUT I DON'T WANT TO. I am buying an Asus Google Nexus 7, 32GB because it is now being pulled out from the market. I payed for it, and that's what I want. Why are they telling me what to get for my money? So, they told me to calm the shit down and promised that they will call their supplier and promised that I will get my unit within the week.

What has Gigahertz SM North Edsa violated?
1. It is printed on the receipt that there is an outright 7 day return/exchange for defective units. Which can not be according to RA 7394 Consumer Act of the Philippines.
2. It is the choice of the buyer if he/she wants a refund or an exchange. The store can not insist that they exchange the unit. RA 7394.

I am just really disappointed that most stores insist they make money. And I am quite disappointed that because of this, most Filipinos would think they don't have the right to return or exchange defective goods.

Nevertheless, I just want my Nexus 7 on Thursday as they promised. And whether or not I get it, I will make sure to file a complaint in DTI.

Labels: #life, #manic, #update, %english, `life, `problem, gigahertz, murderous, nexus 7, tatak pinoy, text

 

(I ended up posting it anyway)

1. Other Countries Consider DoTA 2 as an E-Sport
Here is the list of DoTA 2 Teams, just so you can see the different flags in there.

2. To support DoTA players in the PH.
The Philippines have a professional team, Mineski. There are others, who we do not know of,  because we don't support them. Just like that.

3. To show that Pinoy DoTA Players do not suck.
There's this convention that if you're Pinoy, you prolly suck at DoTA. Guys, sometime's it's just the lag. There are a few noobs like me, but, srsly, it's still teamwork and good internet connection.

4. DoTA makes you think, requires quick response.
It's not true that DoTA is a no-brainer. You have to be smart, you have to have a strategy, you have to respond quickly. You have to know your teammates, and know how to work with them. It's really fun chess kind of game.

5. To pressure internet providers to speed up development.
If DoTA 2 is considered an e-sport, that would make our country a possible host to possible events. DoTA 2 is an online game, even the LAN needs internet connection. What we consider "fast" right now here in the Philippines, is crap outside the country. If we want to complete globally, we can start with our internet connection, thank you very much.

6. To raise awareness what DoTA is.
DoTA 2 is not a pangtamad* game. It's just like chess, you have to outwit your opponent. It's just like basketball, you have to have teamwork. You have to have patience, to wait for the perfect time to defend or to push lanes.

The International is already in its fourth year. I wish to someday see a Philippine team up in the roster in less that five years.

*for the lazy

Labels: #list, %english, `fandom, `internet

 

Just a personal update on me. Because I love talking about myself, a flaw I share with every human being born to a modern world.

I have finally shifted into a course and college! I am now taking up Bachelor of Public Administration in the National College of Public Administration and Governance. I honestly applied blindly, not knowing what it is about. But, I'm glad I got in and that I signed with them. B. PA is a pre-law, so, I might actually end up taking law after all. Unfortunately, I am accustomed to reading fiction and writing nonsense; the total opposite of what we do in B PA. My classes are all theoretical this sem, all readings heavy, I might explode in any minute. But, so far, so good, I'm actively participating and enjoying my classes.

I would love to rant about why I did not get into Geology, or Clothing Technology. But the downward spiral of the quality of education in UP might be enough explanation for some colleges desperate moves of "keeping the delinquents out". And I'll leave it at that.

There's really nothing else I can say about myself. I've been planning to talk about DotA but someone else beat me to it, so I just gave up. Haha.

Some sensible posts soon!
♥

Labels: #life, #random, #update, %english, `life, `me

 

At first, I thought, WTF, but, I realized that I was actually just jealous.

Wattpad stories (novels/short stories) are being published left and right at the moment, and are becoming today's teens' literary works. She's Dating the Gangster and Diary ng Panget (Yes, pangEt. My Lingguistics prof would flip.) even have movies now. I am all for writers' dreams of getting published come true.

I only have two concerns in this happening. My first concern is that, hopefully, publishing houses are editing  these stories thoroughly, making sure that whichever language the authors are using, the rules of grammar are still followed.

Since I was 13 years old, I've been reading either children's books, thrillers, or law novels (do they call John Grisham a law novel author? I'm not sure what genre that is. Haha.). My share of fantasizing about a prince sweeping me off of my feet would come from the cheesy teleseryes on TV that my family would watch during dinner and homework time. I think if I watched cheesy teleseryes, read cheesy novels, watched cheesy anime, and read cheesy manga, I would be a total hopeless romantic, selling myself cheap to guys who don't really care about me. And that is my second concern, the theme of these stories being about finding love when you're young. Maybe you can, I'm not saying it's impossible. I just hope that it is not being sold to young girls, with the problem of teenage pregnancy already growing.

I'd still have to say thumbs up to the authors, keep writing, keep learning, keep experimenting. And to readers, be smart. You read because you are smart, so be wise, too. Learn to separate fiction from reality, and use your books as inspirations rather than guidelines to living life. Unless you're reading powerful books.

Labels: #manic, #random, %english, `internet

 

First of all, I would like to say that I totally loved the Disney animated movie of Sleeping Beauty. I've seen it numerous times, and I believe I have enough idea of what each character's personality is. Growing up, I have also read some adaptations. In my opinion, I have enough background of how evil Maleficent is.

She has always been portrayed as the baddest bitch in the fairy land. She crashes parties. She curses babies. She grows thorny shit everywhere 'cause you shall not pass. She breaks the land so you'll fall to your death trying to pass. I told you, you shall not pass. She becomes a dragon for fucks sake. She's the most evil villain in my childhood, even eviler than Voldemort (who's secretly gay, I swear).

But, the movie, surprisingly by Disney, portrayed Maleficent as confused and bitter. I didn't like how the story went, I was so confused and disappointed. It may have been because I've seen the old animated film, but me and my brother were WTF-ing the whole time.

WTF moments:
1. When Maleficent cursed the baby Aurora into an unending sleep.
WHAAAT?! Why would she go so soft on her betraying lover's precious innocent daughter?! She should not have held back, and just said YOU WILL DIE YOU FUCK.
2. When Maleficent added that Aurora will wake up to true love's kiss, and then looked at Stephen like "you know, 'cause there's no such thing as true love"
Why should they portray Maleficent as a bitter ex lover? She should just have been angry and destructive. I mean, I acknowledge that in the background story, he betrayed her, mutilated her. But, can't she just be mean to him without saying 'cause you broke my heart.
3. The three fairies
Because they were portrayed as careless and simply silly. Aurora went running to godknowswhere, and they never suspect a thing.
4. Maleficent takes care of Aurora. She tries to take the curse back. She wakes Aurora up with her kiss.
The queen of evil should have a heart of stone. End of story.
5. Maleficent does not transform into a dragon.
Just. No.

Good point of the movie:
1. Great acting
2. Great effects
3. Nice background story.
4. I finally know what that crow is.

Overall, I still like the classic story of an evil fairy trying to kill a baby. That is all. OKbye.

Labels: #manic, %english, `films

 

So, I just got my laptop back! I will try to be active online again!

ATM Twitter, Ask.fm, and Tumblr are open in other tabs. I'm trying to catch up. Not that two or three people are looking at SuicidalFoot everyday, though.
Anyway, my laptop also lacks a lot of programs. That screen cap was saved in paint. Oh God. What has life come to. I don't have WinRar, Photoshop, and I'm not sure what else. It'll take some time 'til my laptop is back forreals.

Anyway, I got rejected in Clothing Tech. Like last year, I got rejected in Geol. So, I'm thinking of quitting school and just go hobo.

I've been reading and watching a lot. Don't want to get into any details as of now...

But, srsly, I don't know what else to do with my life. I try my best to go straight and the universe fucks it.

I'll post better soon. Okbye.

Labels: #life, #random, #rant, %english, `me, `problem, `school

 

It was a weird sem, last sem was.
I've heard from most people that it had been their worst sem (so far). It was, too, for me. I was forced to go Non-Maj, it was a billion times harder to get classes, I had a 5:30-7PM WF class, and... well, I could list all the fuck-up's and, yet, it was actually the best sem I've ever had, too.

When I got the Geol 40 class, I was (though, still am) really determined to do good with the sem. I took it as a sign from God, that He is finally giving me what I want and that I have to do my best not to fuck it up.

I had lesser missed and late classes. I would actually study earlier than the night before the exam. I read ahead the lectures, most of the times. I read notes, if applicable. I was, in a sense, being a better me. I was, finally, studying.

I guess that's the reason I felt so stressed. Because, though I wasn't hoping for uno's, I was hoping to get better grades... anything is better than what I've had before, anyway.

I did study. I did get better grades. I did dream.

Yet, I still failed to get what I want.

There is no such thing as "work hard and you'll get what you want." Life is just luck.

I seem to be unlucky.

Labels: #drama, #life, %english, `life, suicidal

 

Excited Bunny is excited!

I can not put into the words the feelings I had in that concert. My summary would be: "wtfawesomeshitseungrycriesfeels omgicant feelstoomuchfeels." I am sorry.

I would just want to thank my boyfriend for making this experience possible. You are the best! Thank you! I love you so much!

Labels: #update, %english, `love life, high

 

Marcgell and I went to ATC for the gaming expo. We participated in the scavengers hunt by PC Express. We also met up with his couple orgmates to eat. Basically, we went out for a date before I needed to leave for the Bihawo Outreach, when something really weird happened. Lady Boss asked if I was bringing Marcgell along. I told her that she already said one too many "no non-KappaThEDs allowed". She said papayag naman s'ya basta magpaalam ng maayos. So, I took advantage and asked if I could bring my boyfriend along. Luckily, I was able to bring him along, for the second time around.

I asked Marcgell to lend me shirts because I no longer had clothes. We ended up looking crazy on the first day of the outreach.

I'm really not good with kids. I will murder them. I swear. But, you know, I couldn't because we were there to help them instead. Haha. I was able to endure a day-long play-work with the kids. We did lectures on disaster preparedness, too. Mine was totally impromptu, because, well, I didn't research, I didn't listen, too. But, I think I did a pretty good job with the basics. Haha :)

I loved the part where we gave out sleepers. Most kids preferred looks over quality. It is one of the many luxuries their situation can not afford. I tried my best to convince them to go for the quality, but, kids will be kids. We were there to make them happy.

Karla, Lady Boss Mich, Inah, Meeee, Lia

zebraaaaa

The night at Dawal, I was not able to enjoy to the fullest. When Irah and I went in our room to rest after dinner, we fell asleep. Funny thing is, Marcgell and ML were there watching TV with us. THEY DIDN'T EVEN WOKE US UP. They just left us and went to drink and have fun with the rest of the world. Brod Love jokingly said it was really what ML and Marcgell planned, to get us to bed early so they can have a look-out for possible hit-ons. When Irah and I woke up, it was already curfew, they were no longer releasing drinks, and everyone were told to go to bed. Bad thing, too, was Marcgell being kinda drunk. Since I'm not the kind that takes care of drunk people (since I'm the drunk person, on most occasions), Irah took care of my boyfriend for me. Haha. ML and I were just cheerleaders.

Irah and I had a private pool party the next day, well, not that private. We were joined by Inah, Albei, and our boyfriends ML and Marcgell. They tried teaching us to swim. Hahaha. :)) We also had some chismis over lunch.

T'was fun without the booze. Next year again, definitely!

Labels: #update, %english, `friends, `love life, `school, `sunshine, high, photo, text

 

1. He is my friend.
He knows me more than anyone else. Well, he used to. Now that we're together, there seems to be things we don't want to hear from each other. But, still, he knows me well.

2. He keeps me sane.
After driving me insane. Parang politiko. Will secretly destroy roads para asahan parin ng masa. Charot.

3. He needs me. I need him
Because I will be there for you even when I hate you.

4. He is always thinking of logical solutions.
Unlike me who acts on feelings.

5. He thinks highly of himself.

6. He is a fan.
I know. All you guys are my fans.

7. He puts up with me.
Very patient. Unlike me.

8. Considerate.
Unlike me.

adding...

9. He let's me eat whatever I want.
...most of the time.

10. He's always telling me that akin lang sya.

Labels: #manic, #rant, %english

 

I knew of Lonely Island from the I Just Had Sex music video, and the LIKE A BOSS meme.

Why are they famous?

I watched almost all their videos and I have realized their songs suck. They have great music, mix it shitty lyrics. They have great feats, but the main vocals are just wtf. It's so disturbing.


BUT THEY ARE REALLY FUNNY. OKAY? Bye.

Labels: %english, into it

 

It's so awkward meeting an ex-boyfriend's girlfriend. Whether you say you have moved on, you'll still ask yourself, "why her?"

Labels: #cw, #drama, %english, `friends, `love life, `problem

 

^this is a 2,500$ worth pc. better to have low chances than none at all. come join

Win computer gears from a giveaway by Team Infused

this post looks suspicious i know, but i am just lazy to make it look good. i hope my editor fixes this if she has time. anw, join. it is not a scam. it is legit. let us enjoy!!!

Labels: #manic, %english, `contest, text

 

RIP, Freedom of Speech & Freedom of Expression

[A/N] Ipinupusta ko ang limang taong kasama ko ang url na http://suicidalfoot.blogspot.com. I moved my blog in a not so very secret place, and here goes nothing...

I have read most of the Cybercrime Prevention Act of 2012, but not all of it. I may be wrong and I apologize in advance to whoever might get offended with this post.

We are in the digital age. We use our computers and phones to communicate, share, and discover. Facebook and Twitter have both became powerful tools of information dissemination. Aside from products and services, and events, and people, politic propaganda has also reached the said social networking site. Supporters of politicians bash each other. Parody accounts humiliated and branded a lot of corrupt and obviously incompetent politicians. But this "law" is beyond Facebook status and Twitter updates.

I am sure that at one point in our lives we have illegally downloaded copyrighted music, photos, videos; and some probably illegally shared their illegally acquired media. It is not that we want to harm industries that are concerned. When I was first introduced to the internet, I did not know that I was doing something illegal. I might have downloaded gigabytes of illegal media before I found out it was wrong. But, I could not do much about it. I did not know how to buy songs online, or why the need to pay for hard copies of magazines that had scans. And, how about our anime? Should I fly to Japan and buy them, and there won't be any subtitles, too?! And besides, it's already uploaded, I might as well take advantage of it.

Still, the Government is right: sharing copyrighted files is illegal.

I have been ranting for 5 years know, about school, about life, sometimes about the Government, too. I express my opinions and my raged thoughts. I believe it is my freedom to say what I want in my blog. It is, afterall, my blog. I am not asking my readers to agree with me. I am just starting an argument in their minds, to start them thinking on their own. I fuel their interest.

I would understand censoring Facebook and Twitter. This may be hard for me to say, but, I guess it makes sense. A lot of people will be influenced if someone said something in FB and Twitter. Worse part is, most of these people would not even know the whole story. Because it is a social networking site, you most like scroll through it, LIKE it, or RETWEET it, and then move on to the other topics shared. Because of the fast-paced online life in social networking sites, we either agree or disagree, most of the time without question.

But, a Cybercrime Prevention Law is not the answer to this. Whichever angle you look at it, this is an oppression of the Freedom of Speech and Freedom of Expression. Why not just tell people to be informed first before liking a page or a post, or before sharing a propaganda photo. (Okay, look who's talking, the girl who didn't even read the act in it's entirety).

How about cybersex? Seriously, guys. Do we still need to talk about this? If women and kids are being sold online, then, yes, that is obviously illegal. I'm sure there's a law for that already. But, what about two knowing, willing people (gender sensitive)? I think it is my choice to send a nude picture to my boyfriend if he asked for it. If I was offended we could talk about it like grown-ups. If I was harassed, why did I even have him as my boyfriend in the first place, right? Anyway, you say, what if they are strangers who just met online. One time they agreed to do webcam, then suddenly, the other party is jerkin' off. Well, I say, close that shit and delete that person from your network. You know, you have the power to block people from whatever accounts you are using. That's the magic of internet, baby.

I think it is time for us to grow up. This should not be such a big issue. It doesn't need a genius to figure out that this Cybercrime Prevention Law is just another excuse to use taxpayers' money.

#NoToCyberCrimeLaw

Labels: #manic, #rant, %english, `death, `internet, `problem, murderous, text

 

1. New author is moving in. LOL. :) Welcome to SuicidalFoot, Boyfriend!
2. This blog will prolly start anew. Themes and all.
3. Trying my best to "protect" my privacy. Tho, I'm not rly a private person, right? Haha. Who am I kidding?
4. Dying.FML.
5. I actually have entries lined up, but, I'm kinda scared of getting penalized or smth, LOL. You know government is a fucked up bitch. Might post it soon, anyway.

Off to work, bye!

Labels: #update, %english, `internet

 

Once in a while, or maybe most of the time, you'll argue about something simple, complicated, or just plain nonsense. These are the times when you feel helpless and just want to slap the person involved halfway to Mars. These are the times when your feelings reach the peak of your patience and just start spitting harsh words after another. These are the times when you just want to stop time and just stare at the sky and hope that everything will go well. However, the essence of arguments is to fix a problem. It is actually more of a positive experience, rather than a negative one. Arguments give hope and chance, it means you haven't given up on something. It depicts a better future if accepted positively by everyone.

Lately, there have been difficulties. There have been misunderstandings. There have been assumptions. But the truth is, I was just stubborn. I was just thinking too highly of myself. I am very proud of my awareness and sensitivity in this matter, and most of the time, I make the right decisions. I am blinded by my mindset. Today's experience has shown me all these. That I was wrong all along. Although I feel bad about committing such a disgusting mistake, I am also relieved and glad about it. It made me happy, actually: Happier than usual. And it unexpectedly brightened up my day... and for the rest of my days.

I was wrong and I finally admit it. I finally recognized it as my mistake. These long history of arguments and useless fights are now behind me, behind us. These feeling is so beautiful. I feel like I am shining. I feel like I can light up a dark room. It is all because of yesterday and today, and most importantly, because of a certain cat.

Don't get me wrong, I hate it when I am wrong.I resent it. But, this time around, it made me a better person.

Labels: #drama, #manic, %english

 

Six hours ago, allkpop posted the story about Big Bang member Seungri getting caught in a sex scandal.

Labels: #manic, %english, `fandom, murderous

 

I am scared of what can happen, what will happen. The future is but the consequences of what we do today. And, so, I am even more disheartened. If I fail, I can only blame myself. If my heart is broken, I can only blame myself. If I die regretting, I can only blame myself.

I keep stalling. Maybe it will be better. Maybe I don't need to decide. Maybe it'll present itself to me, somehow, someday.

I keep doubting myself. I can't do more than this. I'd fail even if I try. I'd fall just by walking.

I don't know how to take this negativity off of me. All I can do is pretend it's never there.

But, when the lights are off, and pjs are on, they come out of my bed and haunt me.

I don't want a broken heart.

Labels: #cw, #drama, #random, %english, `friends, `love life, `problem, `school

 

A memorandum was released last acad year about class suspension. Class will be suspended ONLY IF ONE OF THE FOLLOWING APPLIES: 1. blackout and/or debris is clattered throughout the campus; 2. C5 and/or PhilCoA (Commonwealth) are experiencing heavy traffic. Aside from these, declaration from CHEd and the government applies without the need of verification from the chancellor.

This past week, tbh, it hasn't been really rainy. It's just windy. Which makes it worst when it does actually rain. So, classes weren't suspended. "A little wind won't hurt."

And then the incident in the 4th floor happened. The "little wind" crashed a window and three students were hurt and rushed to the infirmary. Classes were then suspended in the 4th floor of AS only. Because that's where the "little wind" is deadly.

I think the second reason for suspension is a little insensitive. Take for instance my sisses Ienne and Cams, biological sisters, from Malabon. Malabon is experiencing heavy rain, and transportation is a killer. I quote the memorandum, "In principle, students are excused from attending classes if they are unable to travel to UP  Diliman from their respective residences due to flood and other natural calamities." It is the same as saying, "Fine, don't attend your classes, I understand. But we're still having class, anyway. You'll miss the class. But, who cares, safety first!"

Such a crazy week.

Labels: #rant, #update, %english, `school, suicidal, text

 

I'm sad. I miss you. Talk to me, please.

I'm mean.

Labels: #drama, #random, %english, sad, text