I am scared of what can happen, what will happen. The future is but the consequences of what we do today. And, so, I am even more disheartened. If I fail, I can only blame myself. If my heart is broken, I can only blame myself. If I die regretting, I can only blame myself.

I keep stalling. Maybe it will be better. Maybe I don't need to decide. Maybe it'll present itself to me, somehow, someday.

I keep doubting myself. I can't do more than this. I'd fail even if I try. I'd fall just by walking.

I don't know how to take this negativity off of me. All I can do is pretend it's never there.

But, when the lights are off, and pjs are on, they come out of my bed and haunt me.

I don't want a broken heart.

Labels: #cw, #drama, #random, %english, `friends, `love life, `problem, `school

I am scared of what can happen, what will happen. The future is but the consequences of what we do today. And, so, I am even more disheartened. If I fail, I can only blame myself. If my heart is broken, I can only blame myself. If I die regretting, I can only blame myself.

I keep stalling. Maybe it will be better. Maybe I don't need to decide. Maybe it'll present itself to me, somehow, someday.

I keep doubting myself. I can't do more than this. I'd fail even if I try. I'd fall just by walking.

I don't know how to take this negativity off of me. All I can do is pretend it's never there.

But, when the lights are off, and pjs are on, they come out of my bed and haunt me.

I don't want a broken heart.

Labels: #cw, #drama, #random, %english, `friends, `love life, `problem, `school