Everybody faces a wide range of failures everyday. But not everybody knows how to deal with failure. Not everybody is patient enough, or confident enough, that there is a better tomorrow.

Giving up is always my option. When I'm facing a problem, I usually spend 50% of the time convincing myself not to give up, 25% trying to think of something else (ignoring the problem), 15% worrying (crying, and feeling terrible), and just 10% of actual problem solving (thinking of a way to move on and feel better). Suicide is one swift exit from all the problems (and perks) of life. It's so tempting when problems just come piling up outside my door. But, I know how it feels to permanently lose someone. I don't want to be a disgrace to the people who loves me.

I'm not going to boast about how hundreds of people will miss me. Because, srsly, I think about the people who look forward to my success. I don't want to disappoint those who have faith in me. And those who've challenged me, those who said I've reached my limit, I want to prove them wrong. I don't want to give them the satisfaction. I still want to see what my friends (all types of friends) will do with their lives. I want to see how life is. I still want to learn about the greatest ways of living my life. I want to be inspired. I have to endure every fall, every push and shove, every failure, for simple things in life.

When I get slapped in the face, and I get back to my right mind, I usually just wear my best smile and put on my comfiest shoes. You won't get me down. I may fail, but, I will drive this life in a way that these things won't matter in my next destination. Maybe I'm failing in life because I'm not inspired enough, or my priorities aren't set straight. Whether it's this or that, I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Failure happens to everybody, but, happiness is a choice. I may fail, but I'll keep on smiling and thinking positive (as much as I can). If I can't find my inspiration, I think I should at least help others be inspired. If I can't set my own life straight, I think I should at least tell others not to be like me.

But, guys, if I do kill myself, I'm sorry. I'm not the one to talk, but, I hope you people keep yourselves alive and prove me that everything can be better.

Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, random, suicidal

Everybody faces a wide range of failures everyday. But not everybody knows how to deal with failure. Not everybody is patient enough, or confident enough, that there is a better tomorrow.

Giving up is always my option. When I'm facing a problem, I usually spend 50% of the time convincing myself not to give up, 25% trying to think of something else (ignoring the problem), 15% worrying (crying, and feeling terrible), and just 10% of actual problem solving (thinking of a way to move on and feel better). Suicide is one swift exit from all the problems (and perks) of life. It's so tempting when problems just come piling up outside my door. But, I know how it feels to permanently lose someone. I don't want to be a disgrace to the people who loves me.

I'm not going to boast about how hundreds of people will miss me. Because, srsly, I think about the people who look forward to my success. I don't want to disappoint those who have faith in me. And those who've challenged me, those who said I've reached my limit, I want to prove them wrong. I don't want to give them the satisfaction. I still want to see what my friends (all types of friends) will do with their lives. I want to see how life is. I still want to learn about the greatest ways of living my life. I want to be inspired. I have to endure every fall, every push and shove, every failure, for simple things in life.

When I get slapped in the face, and I get back to my right mind, I usually just wear my best smile and put on my comfiest shoes. You won't get me down. I may fail, but, I will drive this life in a way that these things won't matter in my next destination. Maybe I'm failing in life because I'm not inspired enough, or my priorities aren't set straight. Whether it's this or that, I want to believe that everything happens for a reason. Failure happens to everybody, but, happiness is a choice. I may fail, but I'll keep on smiling and thinking positive (as much as I can). If I can't find my inspiration, I think I should at least help others be inspired. If I can't set my own life straight, I think I should at least tell others not to be like me.

But, guys, if I do kill myself, I'm sorry. I'm not the one to talk, but, I hope you people keep yourselves alive and prove me that everything can be better.

Labels: #cw, #life, %english, `death, `life, random, suicidal